I kinda of feel like jumping off something high, with concrete at the bottom.

[Elijah3291]

I would finally be able to fly, just like I have always wanted.

Can anyone talk to me right now? I guess I have details, I just don't want to think about what I'm feeling right now.

[deviousxen]

I sometimes feel like the Sky is Hungry...

And that it will eat me up one day... This world is a big monster, and I'm a broken cog of the universes  framework. A glitch that shouldn't be alive

But THAT DOESN'T STOP ME! Nope. I'm gonna do this human thing for as long as I can.

Don't ever consider what you're thinking if its what I think...

You are just really tired, understandably. You are absorbing too much about the real way things work. So don't think.... MY advice. Take a rest. Get a book... Play video games.


I'm sorry... I guess my perspective is very... Odd. Especially at the moment (under the influence of things)

But even though I'm totally strange, you're not alone Eli. ANd you look kinda dashing.

[Cairus]

Already sent you a PM, but I dunno if those get emailed to you or what, so I'm leaving a reply here, too. My messenger users are listed right here, so on and so forth. Hope to hear from you soon.

[Teknoir]

We all get like that sometimes. Just when the enormity of it all hits early on. Then later when the fustration hits.

Try to chill and do something to take your mind off it. It's a temporary feeling, and the root cause is fixable.

What stops me? If I were to do it now, some bastard would ignore my wishes and put my birth name on my tombstone. F*** that.

Times can get bad. Very bad. But there's just too much fun left to be had to consider leaving any time soon.

Hang in there.

[old1]

Elijah

Over the years I've realized that all big projects (and life in general) oscillate between euphoria and catastrophe.  As the end approaches they gradually converge to something in between.  It may not meet your wildest expectations but it will be far better than your worst fears.

Life is long and holds many treasures we cannot for see.

[cynthialee]

Eli,
I get it. Alot of us do. We like you and would like to keep you around. We know how it can get.
There are alot of people here that would be happy to talk with you.  Hang in there dude. It does get better.

[Lachlann]

I get feelings that are probably pretty similar to what you have right now. I actually get them a lot, and it's not a nice place to be.

I figure that I won't give up until I am happy with myself though. It may take a while, but we'll all get there eventually.

I'm here for you though, if you need someone to chat to, just give a holler.

Took the words right out of my....fingers? Mind? Whichever.

[deviousxen]

about a year ago, when i was seriously depressed and desperately wanting to end my own life, i started a support site for people who are suicidal.  its a troll-free place where people can honestly talk about their feelings with others who have been where they are and feel exactly as they do.....not that you cant do that here, but its kind of a specialty site.

the link is in my sig.

tasha


note to mods:  it probably cant be considered a "family friendly" site.  if you feel it skirts the TOS, just remove the link.


note to xen:  havent seen you in a while, girl, looking GOOD!

.___.

[Luc]

Really, wouldn't it be far more enjoyable to jump off something high with a trampoline at the bottom? Or perhaps a foam rubber pit.

I've had plenty of times, myself, when I've felt like life wasn't worth living. The thing is, though, things always get better. Perhaps they get better, then worse again, ad nauseum, but it's still worth it. Just try to focus on the good things in your life. A few years ago, while dealing with my bipolar disorder at its worst, I made a few CDs while in a better state of mind with songs I knew would make me happy no matter what. When I'd get into my really dark, depressive states, I'd play the CDs, and while they didn't make everything better, they made me realize that it was just a passing phase.

You'll be okay, man. Life is rough, unfortunately, but it's worth living for the good times, however few they may be. And if you ever want a little perspective (as in, your life is better than you think), IM me sometime and ask about how mine's going, lol.

SD

[Kurzar]

I'm in that place a lot Elijah. I've had several attempts and even tho I'm on depression meds I still feel life would be easier if I just quit.  I think my messengers are under my avatar, msg me anytime if you need to.