Good for you, Cynthialee! I was on DIY HRT for seven years because I was unable to face a health professional. I took the first year of medical school so I knew what was involved to keep safe at least sort of. For me it was a matter that my family would allow me to self medicate on grounds that it was for prostate issues but to go to a gender therapist was to dabble in perversion. Finally, I went legit too so I could get the rest of the gatekeeping done.
Best of luck,
Maggie