What Is It About Being a Woman?

[K8]

I've always loved Fred Astaire – his style, his grace, his wonderful rhythmic sense.  I haven't heard a recording of him for I while, so this morning I put on a CD of him singing.

Within the first 8 bars I could feel my insides turning to mush.  This never happened before.  It's got to be the hormones.

I'm getting so I really love all aspects of being a woman!

- Kate

[deviousxen]

Feeling more exposed than I ever have in real life when I got an F on my wrist tag for the barium swallow I just had to have...

being in a practically see-through gown while being radiologically imaged in a sketchy hospital, in the womens section... When I haven't had SRS.


I felt exposed on not just trans levels, but normal ones too. And I had smoked that morning. I have written the whole story down and its... Its like a crazy vivid dream. Surely something you could make a movie about.

I felt so exposed and so..... Ughhhh.

Especially when they put you in positions to image you better, and one of them was "Lie down on your front"
"Like this? Like a dead person?"
"hahah. Yes"


What I wanted to say, was rape victim. That came to mind especially as the white, pastey imaging dye was dribbling out of my mouth onto the table..

Then I felt briefly like Bishop from Alien.

The rest was a taxi cab rip off.

The end.


WOMANHOOD! F*&K YEAH

[maidenprincess]

Hmm what an odd question, and I'm not sure of an answer.  I'm very very happy as a woman.  I'm a girly girl on so many levels and I'm free to express it.  

Oh, your story was about a boy.  I get butterflies in my stomach around boys.  And it doesn't feel like nervousness.   It feels like I am hormonal and I am reacting to their scent.  Seriously.  That's how primal it feels.  Not even like a crush.  I'm just next to him and I need to procreate with him (if I could, lol)  Isn't that funny?  Although it's annoying because I don't want to be all bashful yet flirty when I need to just have a regular convo with the guy.  Lol.  Cologne gets me especially, I forget everything I was doing and just focus on it and get all mushy inside and wanna tell him I love him.  HAHA.

Yeah maybe I'm weird.

[deviousxen]

Hmm what an odd question, and I'm not sure of an answer.  I'm very very happy as a woman.  I'm a girly girl on so many levels and I'm free to express it.  

Oh, your story was about a boy.  I get butterflies in my stomach around boys.  And it doesn't feel like nervousness.   It feels like I am hormonal and I am reacting to their scent.  Seriously.  That's how primal it feels.  Not even like a crush.  I'm just next to him and I need to procreate with him (if I could, lol)  Isn't that funny?  Although it's annoying because I don't want to be all bashful yet flirty when I need to just have a regular convo with the guy.  Lol.  Cologne gets me especially, I forget everything I was doing and just focus on it and get all mushy inside and wanna tell him I love him.  HAHA.

Yeah maybe I'm weird.

no no no....
I get that too...


I smell peoples pheremones that my body likes apparently. Its not from manly men... Its usually from more female pheremones I think... However, I know an FtM. He's off limits, but he smells so good...

Like. Cigarettes and pheremones and HIM. Its a good combo apparently. I guess I just like his body (though he hates it, obviously), and how nice and comforting a person he is. Thats not grounds for anything but a friendship though, cause I love love someone else...

But still... He really really smells good.

[sarahF]

I'm on E and have not had the same feelings. Everyone is differant.
Sarah

[FairyGirl]

I get butterflies in my stomach around boys.  And it doesn't feel like nervousness.   It feels like I am hormonal and I am reacting to their scent.  Seriously.  That's how primal it feels.  Not even like a crush.

men give me butterflies too- even before I'm close enough to smell them. I was walking in town yesterday, one of the little Sydney suburbs right by the beach, and there was this group of 4 gorgeous guys sitting around at an outdoor cafe, with their swimming trunks and shirts off, all buff and muscle-y... zomg I thought I was just going to melt right through the pavement as I walked by them. I got all tingly and light headed... perhaps I was actually down wind or something but geeeeez... and this reaction only seems to get worse as time goes on (or better, depending on how you look at it) 

[Janet_Girl]

I don't get all butterflys and nervous around men.  But I do get that "Vulcan" look of one eyebrow up and kind of a "Indeed" smile on my face.  I was at my local convenience store to get cigarettes the other day, and I was behind this very tall Black gentlemen. I was like "Oh My" and was checking him out.  He smell really yummy.  I don't know what cologne he was wearing but Oh Yeah.

He finished his purchase and realized I was behind him.  He turned and smiled at me. I smiled back and he left.  I watch him leave and turned to the clerk behind the counter.  Judy looked at me and just busted up.  I turned very red.    And she said "Yeah he was quite good looking".  I just grinned and felt very hot.

All I could think of was one line from "Born To Be Wild" by Steppenwolf.  "Get your motor running".  Vroom Vroom. 



Blessed Be
Janet

[NDelible Gurl]

Hmm what an odd question, and I'm not sure of an answer.  I'm very very happy as a woman.  I'm a girly girl on so many levels and I'm free to express it.  

Oh, your story was about a boy.  I get butterflies in my stomach around boys.  And it doesn't feel like nervousness.   It feels like I am hormonal and I am reacting to their scent.  Seriously.  That's how primal it feels.  Not even like a crush.  I'm just next to him and I need to procreate with him (if I could, lol)  Isn't that funny?  Although it's annoying because I don't want to be all bashful yet flirty when I need to just have a regular convo with the guy.  Lol.  Cologne gets me especially, I forget everything I was doing and just focus on it and get all mushy inside and wanna tell him I love him.  HAHA.

Yeah maybe I'm weird.

Omg

No way. I feel that way also. Love it! The hard part is like you mentioned is carrying on a normal conversation and just wanting him to grab me and kiss me! Is getting a boyfriend going to curb these primal emotions??? I'll probably wind up running him through the ringer! lol.

[The None Blonde]

Ya know... I really must be the oddball girl. I don't get mushy at every man I see, Some, sure, may get an interest out of me, I can list off several drop dead gorgeous guys that I'd jump in a second, four of five more that I could see myself falling for.... But I'm taken, perhaps that nulls the dreamy fire? Not sure I ever went to mush at every male even when single. People describe all these wondrous happy squishy feelings around men, Hormones seem to give out a huge list of feelings and emotions that I have never experienced, or knowingly have. Wonder if I'm broken?

[rejennyrated]

Ya know... I really must be the oddball girl. I don't get mushy at every man I see, Some, sure, may get an interest out of me, I can list off several drop dead gorgeous guys that I'd jump in a second, four of five more that I could see myself falling for.... But I'm taken, perhaps that nulls the dreamy fire? Not sure I ever went to mush at every male even when single. People describe all these wondrous happy squishy feelings around men, Hormones seem to give out a huge list of feelings and emotions that I have never experienced, or knowingly have. Wonder if I'm broken?

Count yourself lucky. Having been unashamedly bisexual both pre and post-op I can never tell who is going to make me mushy, and as, like you, I'm happily partnered so it doesn't happen very often. But when it does oh boy! Knees go, concentration and coordination is shot, undies need changing - you know the drill. I guess they don't call it getting the hots for nothing.

[K8]

Ya know... I really must be the oddball girl. I don't get mushy at every man I see, Some, sure, may get an interest out of me, I can list off several drop dead gorgeous guys that I'd jump in a second, four of five more that I could see myself falling for.... But I'm taken, perhaps that nulls the dreamy fire? Not sure I ever went to mush at every male even when single. People describe all these wondrous happy squishy feelings around men, Hormones seem to give out a huge list of feelings and emotions that I have never experienced, or knowingly have. Wonder if I'm broken?

I don't think you're broken None Blonde.  Or if you are, I am too.  This feeling has happened to me with perhaps four men since I started hormones 8 months ago.  But then I'm old, so maybe it takes more to get my motor running.  

And being old, the college hunks don't interest me at all.  I want a guy who might know what he's doing.

- Kate

[Janet_Girl]

Third here NB.  It isn't every guy.  But like Jenny said it does lead to Knickers needing changing.



Hugs and Love
Janet

[sarahF]

Men don't do it for me. My wife calls me a lesbian. I just love woman
Sarah

      

[Laura91]

Men? EWWWWW no thanks. When I see a guy my stomach fills up with butterflies....and then I vomit.    When I see a cute chick then it's like this > 

[deviousxen]

Men don't do it for me. My wife calls me a lesbian. I just love woman
Sarah

I may still be mostly a lesbian...

But I'm now like, totally cool with the phallus, as long as its not on me.

I think thats why I never really cared for the idea... That A. My brain wasn't reprogrammed yet and B. I hated mine so much that why would I like other peoples


But I like people who are mentally dominant girls, or FtMs


(not trying to indicate your femininity, but rather SOME of you definitely are so much more understanding than most men and ideally could still be in touch with empathy... I mean I know someone and I don't see him as a girl at ALL and he hasn't even started HRT. I'm surprised people still call him the wrong pronoun because he's just blatantly himself.... On the other hand he isn't afraid to tell me whats on his mind. He doesn't act like some kind of meathead who is ashamed of their own mind. I mean, obviously hormones that are wrong for him do a number on him, but his experiences, though horrific, could have made him just a better man. Plus he's hot. Not my type though, I just like to point that out because he kind of astounds me in some ways. He is VERY COOL)

Males I thought were hot were rare exceptions, and Its only cause I thought their body was attractive... That doesn't really mean that I'd love them or wanna be with them. I like the feeling of other women, I just like it when I'm theirs.


See this is why I'm hesitant to even call myself "pansexual" even... Cause I just have a specific set of tastes. I mean... Even in food, I'll eat total junk and love it sometimes (assuming it doesn't have MSG or it gives me an attack), and yet I'll miss the days when my dad would get me Creme Brule (or however you spell it... I'm a dumb American... Handicapped.... Deerrrrrr). I'd even mix it (like how I like it sexually to an extent, but specific base and deviation)... I'd add fine wine to healthfood store Ramen noodles and it tasted JAWSOME.


SO...

I dk. I like specific kinds of people... Very specific. But there are exceptions sometimes? But I'd prefer the specific, at least sexually/relationshipwise.

[Naturally Blonde]

Men don't do it for me. My wife calls me a lesbian. I just love woman
Sarah

I'm a bit like that too. There are a few men who are attractive to me, but on the whole I find many men unattractive.

[tgirljuliewilson]

Chatting with a guy is one thing, being close is another.

I vividly remember my first time.  Wearing a skirt and soft top, sitting on my couch in my apartment, watching tv.  Just feeling his arm around me, it made me feel so good, so....protected--a feeling I wasn't used to.  Just the feel of his body next to mine, so muscular, maybe his scent (for all I know), but in any case to finally FEEL like a woman meant the world to me.  To allow myself to be soft, and vulnerable, and feminine....to be MYSELF.

It was awesome, and something I will never forget.

To finally feel truly, completely a woman in my own right, was beyond awesome.

Just my 2 cents....

[Naturally Blonde]

Chatting with a guy is one thing, being close is another.

I vividly remember my first time.  Wearing a skirt and soft top, sitting on my couch in my apartment, watching tv.  Just feeling his arm around me, it made me feel so good, so....protected--a feeling I wasn't used to.  Just the feel of his body next to mine, so muscular, maybe his scent (for all I know), but in any case to finally FEEL like a woman meant the world to me.  To allow myself to be soft, and vulnerable, and feminine....to be MYSELF.

It was awesome, and something I will never forget.

To finally feel truly, completely a woman in my own right, was beyond awesome.

Just my 2 cents....

Wow! now that is what I would call being a woman...and I totally agree, although I haven't been in that position very often but I did feel exactely the same as you describe.

[NDelible Gurl]

Chatting with a guy is one thing, being close is another.

I vividly remember my first time.  Wearing a skirt and soft top, sitting on my couch in my apartment, watching tv.  Just feeling his arm around me, it made me feel so good, so....protected--a feeling I wasn't used to.  Just the feel of his body next to mine, so muscular, maybe his scent (for all I know), but in any case to finally FEEL like a woman meant the world to me.  To allow myself to be soft, and vulnerable, and feminine....to be MYSELF.

It was awesome, and something I will never forget.

To finally feel truly, completely a woman in my own right, was beyond awesome.

Just my 2 cents....

I love your description and agree wholeheartedly!

[The None Blonde]

mmm, Not sure women need men to feel like women.... I'm not being all militant lesbian feminist here... just a realist... We're one of the sexes, we can exist perfectly well as singular entities... we shouldn't place our self worth and self image on what men think of us, or how men treat us. Be a person in your own right.