When I was younger, I had problems with booze. I wasn't a true alcoholic, but I was psychologically dependent on alcohol. I wonder if the same thing is happening with testosterone, and it kind of worries me.
This will probably sound a little weird, but sometimes I get addiction-style feelings about T. I really look forward to my shot every week. But sometimes in the middle of a cycle, I find myself wishing I could shoot up now. I'm not sure why I want to, but I want to. And it's a strong urge, not a passing fancy. I inject on Fridays but often think on a Monday or Tuesday or whatever, "Hey, I could just shoot up today and make Monday/Tuesday/whatever my new shot day." And I really want to do it.
Do you ever feel this way? Where do you think it comes from?