How long does it take you to be yourself & let your guard down?

[Bellaon7]

I'm not talking about burping & whatnot, but how long, & what does it take to be yourself around others? I'm no good at being anyone but me, but I still feel like I have to be very careful. I don't like to hide, maybe it would be smart to, but I just hate hiding. 

[Janet_Girl]

I tended to be stand offish.  I am shy and much to myself.  I have never been one for being open with strangers, unless of course I have been drinking.  And I don't drink anymore.



Janet

[tekla]

I don't have enough imagination to be anyone else.  Nor do I have the energy.  Too much other stuff to do.  So what you see is what you get - taking into account that its a rather complex me to be. 

[Hannah]

I don't really know who I am yet to be completely honest, so I'm going to go with a long time. I thought I did, but a couple months ago everything I thought I knew finally dissolved into a long-haired-pill-popping-ocd-powerwalking-wrist-cutting-blubbering-shuddering-mess. It's like there's two realities: one where I don't have an identity and one where I do and right this moment I kind of bounce in between. So, it's tough when I see people studying me and trying to see the genuine person inside, because right now there really isn't one...just kind of bits and pieces that my therapist and I are sorting through and splitting pretty evenly between the mending pile and the garbage can.

[Bellaon7]

I've accomplished little of what I would really liked to, but I've only lied when it was a matter of staying alive, that is the depth of my lies. I do not feel the need to lie anymore, not because I am a good person, but I will not say sorry for who I am.

[Miniar]

I'm always myself.
It just changes, which aspects of myself are the most visible at any given time.

[jesse]

i am shy so it takes a while befor i let someone in about the only place i feel comfortable talking is on chat or in forums do to the anonymous eeling it allows sad but true unfortunately
jessica

[michael 19 jones]

 It depends on which of my two persona wakes up after a good nap. If its Amrisa, I'm shy and always on guard. Mainly because the body I do have now does fit Amrisa's persona. If my male persona gets up, ( he rarly does anymore) he is a bit more open with people and enjoys to socialize with them. Most of the time, I keep my distance.

I'm quite sure if that makes any sense to anyone but that is how it feels like for me. 

[VioletNight]

How long does it take you to be yourself & let your guard down?

Never. My guard is up even when I'm completely alone.

[aubrey]

Never. My guard is up even when I'm completely alone.

I used to be the same. Then I took up drinking and it helped for awhile, to get the yucky stuff out and stop caring so much, cause I cared waaay too much. Then I stopped drinking and kept on being open