I used to be TylerTerp and I used to say some things that weren't very well thought out. I'm getting better.
For those of you who never met me, I'll reintroduce myself.
My name is Tyler. I live in Indiana. I work at an elementary school in the cafeteria, but I'm quitting as soon as I graduate high school. That's in about a month. I started therapy almost 2 months ago and it's going well. I'm out to everyone I know...at home, at work, at school. I'm getting my name changed legally as soon as I can figure out exactly how to do it. I call a place to ask how to go about it, they tell me to call somewhere else, they tell me to call yet another place...it gets confusing and stressful. I plan to go to college for pastry and baking arts. I'm hoping to start testosterone by Christmas, but it's going to take some more convincing for my mom to go along with it. My therapist is on my side, thinking I should start as soon as possible to get maximum effect. I'm ready, I've been ready for a while. I'm learning a lesson in patience, however.
When I was here last I was happy. I had a girlfriend, things were going great. We were going to move in together. We loved eachother. We made eachother happy.
Two months ago she broke up with me. Why? Because she's a lesbian. I'm a man. Great validation, but I can't get over how much I miss her. Lately I'm just trying to cope with losing her, trying to get my schoolwork done so I can graduate, and trying to save a little money so I can move out.
I'm currently living with my grandma (parents and other family, too. That's what being broke does to you.) and cousin. There are seven, sometimes eight people in the house. Privacy is hard to find.
I guess I'm coming back here because I lost my only outlet when I lost my girlfriend. She was the first person I came out to, the person who gave me the strength and the courage to do something about this disposition. And now she's just gone, and I don't know what the hell to do.
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