So lately, the whole GID has been piling up so hard on me, and I really needed to have an outlet to someone, as I think I would have gone insane otherwise.
Being at University kinda sucks though, as I had to use MSN, though it was handy for linkage etc.
Basically I kinda let her know I wanted to speak to her earlier this week, and caught her today. I mumbled through a basic explanation of how I felt, (very hard to do, especially pressing the Enter key!) and showed her a picture of me as my female self.
She was far too agreeable
Haha. To be fair, she didn't have any idea, but afterwards she didn't make any inclinations of bad feeling or anything. It's an annoying situation to be in, as whilst I can see her 90% being sincere (we're close-close, tell each other everything) and fine with it and wanting to help me through it, (what she said), there's a small 10% of me that thinks she just was overly nice because that's the kinda person she is, and really she's a bit put off by it.
What makes things worse is I know she had the hots for me at one point. >_<
I've not started HRT yet, but I'm in the process of taking some herbs to stop hair loss and block some T while I'm searching for a therapist...
After having the conversation, one part of me is insanely inspired that no, I won't lose everything, and there's nothing holding me back, but then again there's that feeling of 'ugh'.
I doubt I'll come out to family until I start HRT and there has been some effect though. Is it always this confusing coming out to people?
Post Merge: November 29, 2009, 08:44:59 PM
Also, how do I edit my profile to change my sig and avatar? It just brings up a group option...
