I'm soooo sorry if i will affend anyone on this board .I never post ,i only read .i have been reading the post's for along time.but struggling for half my life maby i should say something.I usually stay to the crossdresser board ,but i have to tell them i am gay,witch is not exactly true.most of the time i just want what every other woman wants(ie.a husband and kid's).I was so afraid i would have panick attacks sometimes as a guy.sometimes i thought everyone knew