Why does it matter so much!

[x-icecubes-x]

Why do I feel it matters so much that I am female rather than male! I can do the same type of things as a boy, have the same type of fun...enjoy myself in the same type of ways, but I cant help but feel that being male would make all of these ideas so much better! Why does it bother me this much!

[Barbara]

It only matters in your head.I mean this big conflict is only in your head,basically know one cares.I don't mean this in a hard way ,but this is the world we live in

[K8]

I adapted pretty well pretending to be a man, but it never felt "right".  It's a bit like what the world looks like when I don't wear my glasses - I can get around all right but things aren't lined up well.

When I went to my doctor for hormones, he said I had the right to be happy.  I told him it wasn't about being happy, it was about being whole.

And maybe that's why it matters so much.

- Kate

[Just Kate]

Why do I feel it matters so much that I am female rather than male! I can do the same type of things as a boy, have the same type of fun...enjoy myself in the same type of ways, but I cant help but feel that being male would make all of these ideas so much better! Why does it bother me this much!

Sounds like the beginnings of your romp with GID.  Starts with something social a lot of times, something that makes you realize, "wait! This sucks!  why am I *this* and not *that*?!?  *That* would be so much better!"

It sucks, and for most it only gets worse from there, but while it might be easier to do the things you'd like to do and life might be better for you if you are a boy, do you think it possible you could do those same things as a girl without having the soul sucking tendency to always hate your body?

[Kendall]

Icecubes, you ask a good question, I think. My life would be a lot simpler if I would just accept my body -my "assigned gender" - and go on. Why, oh why, can't I?