Who loves life?

[Megan]

I know I am losing my mind, since all of a sudden I am starting to really love life. And I wouldn't change a thing about it. It's like the best feeling. It's like right now I can do anything, tell my family the truth, change the way I look, make a new friend (okay a first friend).

It started after I kind of thought, "what if heaven/hell does not exist"... then life is all I have left. Then, that means this moment is all I have to enjoy.

I can either make it great, or waste it away. And now I think I am living now... even if I don't change a thing.

School is beginning again this Monday, which is the most dreaded place of all time. But this feeling is making me to think to really enjoy it for once, or at least try to be okay with it. Sometimes I feel like I am having a melt down in there so yeah, that's why being okay is a big improvement from melt down.

I don't even feel like me today... I hope I don't come crashing down tomorrow. But I am losing my faith in religion at the same time, but why do I feel so good? I am obese. I have yellow teeth. I have a fat nose. And I just hate the situation I have with my family.  I have to go to court. I might fail a class.

But it's like I have all the power in the world to change that.

Now I am thinking my mind is doing this so I cannot see the reality of how ugly everything is, like I am in denial of it all. But the feeling won't go away even if I think that. It started when I woke up this morning.

[Cindy]

Hi Megan

I know you have had a tough time recently, but so what? I love life as well. I have a wife, whom I love, who is slowly and cruely dying. There is nothing more precious than life. With life there is hope. With hope there is change.

Without life there is nothing. That BTW is the tragedy of suicide. Nothing is that bad.
I was once asked about how I coped with the litany of problems that beface me in so many areas. I did have to think about it for a few seconds.

You stand up tall. You look life in the eye. You put a smile on your face. You walk with steady steps.

Works for me.

I hope everything goes well with you.

Cindy

[justmeinoz]

The past is gone, the future is not here yet, so the present moment is all we have.  I intend to enjoy it as much as possible, and if I am not enjoying the present, another will be along in a second.

School? It will be all a memory in a couple of years, and you probably will never see most of the people who give you a hard time again.

Enjoy. 

[Just Kate]

Could it be possible you are experiencing some form of mania?  Perhaps an upswing in a bipolar disorder?  I'm not meaning to offend, just wondering.

[Walter]

I rarely have those days where I wake up feeling really good like I can take on anything that comes my way. I'm usually the doormat to my problems. But I do love life. Because I know someday things have to get better. And they always do.

Last night I had a weird flashback. I downloaded a song that I had first heard right when my early life was really in the gutter. I contemplated suicide back then. Listening to that song now, really felt strange. I got to thinking though that "What if I had really killed myself back then? I would've missed out on these next 8 years. I'm glad I didn't do it"

Hope I didn't hijack the thread. I was just putting in my own experience

[NDelible Gurl]

I had an epiphany while jogging/walking this morning. Here I am walking on a rural highway with my sister and we're slipping and finding footing in the parts of the road not covered by snow/ice. I thought "hmmm am I running or walking away from things?" I have had some turmoil in my life and I've been slowly regaining my composure in many aspects of my life. So... even though I slipped and slided on the road.... this is where it led me so far.

Haven't smoked in over a year. Haven't drank either. Took up jogging/walking. Went back to school.

Sheesh. How can one not say life is pretty nice now??? When you've been to heck and back things begin to take a new meaning.

You've got a lot sunshine girl(s). Keep it up

[june bug]

I had the same experience recently... one day I was just walking down the street and *bam* I was happy in a way I'd never been before.

Hang on to that feeling!  Life doesn't have to be shadows and spiderwebs!

[tekla]

"Most people are about as happy as they make up their minds to be."


Abe Lincoln