Crash & Burn !!!!

[lolli]

Evening girls/guys.

Long time no hear from me.
I broke a mirror at work at the begining of this year so I have had rather alot of bad luck 
I was treated very badly on one site after a few weeks when they found out about me.
So thats a bit of a downer for me, more so as I am now banned from the site!!
Talk about homophobic and they claimed they were not.
And today I found out that the so called girlfriend has been seeing other men.
So I broke that off.
I would of liked to remain friends but she had to get nasty and threaten me so I went to the Police and they warned her off.
So girls here it is? secondhand single male up for sale and only slightly used, seeks female with wicked sence of humour bordering on sarcastic with lots of energy.
Umm maybe I should quit whilst the goings good.
Of course on the brighter side its getting colder and Christmass is nearly here again


 

[RebeccaFog]

Oh, Lolli,

  You poor thing. I'm sorry to hear about your misfortunes. After a series of downs like that, we have to hope the next ride is up.

Bless you,

Rebecca Fog

[tinkerbell]

 


after the storm comes the sun.......




tinkerbell

[lolli]

Thanks girls for your support.
Though Tink to be honest after the storm comes the snow 
you be carefull in the snow and ice on those heels!!

[cindianna_jones]

I once dropped a crate of 100 30" X 90" mirrors.  It was several thousand dollars worth.  They all broke of course.  Was that the source of my life's frustrations?  I've never even thought about it in that way.

Cindi

[Laurry]

Cindi...the shame of it all was that not a single one of those mirrors got a chance to reflect your beauty.

Lolli, sometimes life sucks.  All our hopes and dreams get crashed just like those mirrors.  Yet, out of the chaos and wreckage, oftentimes something unexpectedly beautiful rises.  People who we barely know turn out to be steadfast friends...another friend who has secretly been waiting for you to become available lets you know how they really feel...sometimes we discover that what we really need is time by ourselves to sort out things we didn't even realize were bothering us.

Let's hope one or more of these wonderful surprises are waiting for you.

Hugs.......Laurie

[HelenW]

Wow, Cindi!  That's 700 years of bad luck!

It would be ironic if you lived that long to experience it all, wouldn't it? 

Lolli, I'm sorry to hear that your life has handed you a few downers.  I'm sure they aren't the first and probably won't be the last but you've walked away from all the crashes and survived and this time it should undoubtedly be the same.

In the meantime, come on in - take a seat by the fire here and warm your toes and make yourself at home!

Hugs & Smiles,
helen

[tinkerbell]

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[Tiffany2]

Lolli;

  I'm so sorry so much is going wrong. Hang in there as better times will surely come.
  As for the homophobic site; welcome to the club. It generally takes me about two weeks to slip up and get the boot for outing myself. But then again; if they can't handle it, that's their tuff luck. I must admit that I lost some friends that had no way of contacting me after I got banned.
  That's what I love about Susan's. The people here have an unfeigned concern one for another and so much in common that straight people don't.
  Their loss!
  Take care.

  Tiffany

[Julie Marie]

Lolli, I've never been much of a believer in bad luck.  You broke a mirror at the beginning of the year and you have let that ruin the rest of it?  Why torture yourself like that?  And why worry about a group of homophobes who banned you?  Feel lucky you found out they are narrow minded, intolerant bigots.  Yes, it sucks your GF hasn't the moral fiber to be honest with you but you should consider yourself lucky you found out now and not later, possibly after marriage and kids.  And why would you want to remain friends with her?  So you can learn how to be disloyal to your next girlfriend? 

The way I see it you have been very lucky.  You have been rejected by bigots and cheats and who knows what other bottom feeders you may have had in your life.  That means there's a lot of goodness in you.  They don't want you around.  You may show them how to treat other human beings with dignity and respect.  How could they possibly engage in their selfish, egotistical world if that happened?

As for that ad, how about "Decent, kind, loving man seeking the same in a woman.  Cheats, bigots, and prejudiced individuals need not apply."

You didn't crash and burn.  You skyrocketed to the heavens and rose above the darkness.

Julie

[lolli]

Oh no girls I am not disprited by events.
I am a fighter you know you knock me down and I will get up again.
Nooo I regretted breaking the mirror because we needed it for the new store, so instead we fitted infra red cctv.($$$$)!!!
Anyway I feel really great today.
I went out for a ride today on my push bike, always training like Bri, and what a wonderfull autum day it has been riding across the common and through the woods.

And I have lost another 3 pounds Wahooo sorry just working my way down to 0.
I will have my waist.

You are all very kind you know.

[lolli]

Kiera, thankyou for your thoughts.
I connect to the internet through my wifi connection on my laptop.
I understand I can change my ip address though I am not sure how?
The site banned me when too many incosistances! hope I spelt that right, appeared.
I thought that by being me on a girls mountainbike site and always being en fem that I could pass, but somehow they saw through me and banned me.
So now I am re directed 
No I wont go back and its not a problem.
As for the ex!! well I dont know I want to be walked on likea doormat again and I have another friend though just a friend.
Oh my Doc's appointment, well it was nerve racking again for me but I went in and poured it all out.
So my doctor is making me an appointment to see a gender re assignment councller and she wants me to go back and see her again after my first appointment. 

[lolli]

Sorry Kiera but I am not sure I understand where your coming from here regarding my ex??
Considering she knows I come on this site and your quite new !!
But if you must know my ex is very lovely but has an underlying nasty side to her, and when she said she was going to do for me on the mobile and then frightened my mother on the phone, I decided enough was enough and called the Police.
Regarding the bike site, I guess I cooked my goose by avoiding club rides.
I was trying to understand women and what makes them tick, what do they think about, mainly to get inside thier minds and see how they see us. 

[Ricki]

Hi Lolli
I used to well a long time ago hate winter.. still hate driving in it (or do i hate the other drivers that cannot seem to drive in snow? Ya that's it...)
but i learned to love winter.  not just because i like skiing, snow shoeing is on my list now to do, but because its a part of the turn or seasons.  People think things die in the winter and i suppose they do but winter is a time i think for more solitude, regrwoth, thought, to see nature in her awesome, to then when spring comes see the wonderful changes that happen and how everything "springs" back to life? hmmm maybe that's me to?  Of the four seasons i like winter the least but somehow i manage to partially hybernate through it for spirng time!
glad you're not soo down feeling now!
Ricki

[lolli]

Got the music on loud as I want to shut others out from hurting me, more than I am at the moment.
I have some very close friends, some straight some gay.
But today I came out and told my friends that what they know and see is not me.
And knowning the rejection each and everyone of you girls are suffering from friends and family, I know that in time I will have all this to go through.
I read Bri's post and Steph and Mell's, and all of you are hurting so much inside.
I will spend my second holiday this year alone, and if you knew me you would see my pain

Why is one man cruel to another.

[Ricki]

Oh Lolli...'ll shoulder some of your pain.. none of that goes as well as planned.  I have not said much to anyone but for the few my success rate is maybe 50-50 as far as not at least being shot or run over... but have lost some good friends along the way..
then i think wait a minute how good of a friend were they that they would not even take the time to think about what i said or told them about me and then they disappear from your life often with hateful words and messages.. hmmm my God will catch up with some of these hypocrites!
I hope yours does too!  mean while there are some A#1 excellent quality friends on this sight most people would dream to have!
Hang in there,  think we all need a universal cyber morphine pump we can channel into, hehe...
Ricki

[lolli]

Riki May I have a small piece of pie please?

Cyber pie is good for me because I dont put weight on.

[Ricki]

hehe.. yes fat free guilt free have two slices!
I speaking of should not be sitting here drinking soda and on the pc i should be out camping or moving my sad body somehow so i do not get fat!!!
thanks