i'm sorry

[bunny]

i got a email saying i can't post on my topic any more. it got locked. i'm sorry. i must have said bad things. i'm really really sorry, i didn't want to make anyone upset and you can delete me if you like, i won't come back here. i just thought you might help me. i only just turned eighteen and don't know anything about lawyers and stuff. i am on school holiday at the moment (i know, you think i shouldnt be at school any more because i am 18 but i did year one twice because i find reading and writing real hard and they diagnosed me with my disability and said i needed to stay back). i will talk to my english teacher, she is very nice. she is the one that saw my sore arm and made an appointment for me at the pyschologist. i am on school holidays for summer, but i go back in january for my year twelve, so i will talk to her then. thankyou to every one that tried to help me. sorry to everyone i made sad. i didn't mean to. i just wanted someone to help me.

[Renate]

Aw, Bunny, we didn't mean to chase you away.
I did read your post but don't understand why it was locked down.
You do need to find an ally right there who can help you, who can actually see what is happening.
I hope that your English teacher can help.
Please stay and keep talking with us.

[Janet_Girl]

Bunny,

If things continue, I can contact the police in your area.  They will come out and investigate.  I did not lock your topic and I am concerned.

Yes we know where you are at.


Janet

[bunny]

i have been thinking lots. i think i know why they shut my topic off. i think they were scared that nice people might come on here and read what my brother does and think all trangender people do that. but someone in the topic said that it is seperate, kind of like how i am a girl and i like cats. being a girl doesn't make me like cats, it is sperate. so my brother being trangender and him hurting me is seperate. i don't think any of you people would do those things to me or your little sisters because you are all nice. my brother was hurting me long time before he said he is a woman and i think that they are two things, you know?
i am very sorry if any one got hurt by what i said.
i got a email but the board won't let me reply. it said i can't send personal messeges.
do you think if i looked my teacher up in the phone book, she would talk to me? i know teachers and kids aren't meant to talk outside school. i am scared of police. i don't want big scary policemen coming and taking me away. who will look after my cat?

[Janet_Girl]

If you can find your teacher, please call.  There is no reason to fear the police.  They may just take your brother.


Janet

[LordKAT]

bunny,
you need 15 posts before you can send or answer a PM. That is when you can add na avatar as well. I hope that answers the PM question.

[bunny]

my teacher might let me come stay with her. i don't know. i don't know if she has gone away for holidays or anything like that.

today is Christmas and we had Christmas lunch. mum and me (the girls) did all the cooking and my dad and brother dranks beers and watched tv.
when we were peeling potatos, i said to mum that sometimes my brother touches me inppropriately and it makes me feel really sad. she was quiet for a long time an then she said "yes i thought he might be. i wish i knew how to make you feel better.' so i said i wanted to go and talk to the psychologist. she said i will have to wait until new years, they won't be open, but after that they should be.
i'm glad i talked to mum. i only did it because you all were so nice and told me to tell. now if mum knows, maybe she will tell him he has to leave me alone.
and my mum said she might by me a new kitten soon. i want a white one with blue eyes.

[Cindy]

Hello Bunny

I'm one of the moderators on the site. I am worried about your post. I am very willing to pass your electronic adresses to the police force so they can come and help you. They can of course trace you through those electronic addresses. It is very common practice. Please let us know ASAP if DON'T want that to happen. Otherwise we will.

Cindy JAmes

[bunny]

please don't send my address to the policemen. i talked to mum and she said i can go see the psychologist. i don't want to be intervewed by policemen. i am scared of policemen. i talked to my mum, she knows and she said she is going to help to make me feel better. mum will know what to do. and then i can see amy, the physchologist and work out what to do. i have watched shows like law and order and seen what happens in court and with policemen. please please please don't make the policemen come.
Post Merge: December 25, 2009, 04:55:17 AM
i'm kind of real scared right now that the policemen will come barging in my door with there guns out. once when i was little our house got robbed and the policemen came and i was so scared. i hid behind mum's legs. i saw that big black gun on the policemans belt and was so scared. i knew what guns were from watching tv. i am so scarede of going to jail. i want to tell the truth, so you know you can't send the police. i have been in trouble with the police before because i stole some things from a shop. a bottle of perfume and a scarf. they put me in a scary room and told me if i ever got in trouble again i'd have to go to court and they'd tell my mum and dad. i didn't even want the stuff, i just took it. but the policemen treated me like i am retarded, because of my disability, and they spoke loud at me and scared me. i don't like police. please, please please don't send the police to my house. i'll be real good, i'll do anything, just don't, ok, just don't. i am so scared.
Post Merge: December 25, 2009, 06:10:37 AM
do you really know my address? at school they said not to let anyone on the internet find my address. can anyone find my address on the internet? if i join any groups does everyone in the group get my address? i have joined a few websites in the last few days. some harry potter ones and a one for abused teens and one for meeting penpals. do they all know my adress? i think you all here won't hurt if you have my address, but at school they said that pedofiles use computers to hurt people. they said you don't know if the person talking about harry potter really is eighteen or maybe is an old man and is tricking you. can anyone get my address? i thought the internet was private as long as you told noone where you live and your town.

[HelenW]

Bunny,

The staff at Susan's can see you computer's address, not your home's address.  In the rare occasion that we feel it's warranted we will use your computer's address to find out which city you are in and then call the appropriate authorities, like the police.  The authorities can then find out your home address by referencing your computer's address.  We are unable to do that, so there's no reason to be fearful.

We will call the authorities if the person posting sounds as if they are under an immediate threat of harm, either from themselves or from someone else.  Your posts seem to indicate that, which is why we are worried.  Since you ask that we do not call the authorities we will not, at this time. 

I sincerely hope the psychologist will be able to help you with your issues.  Unfortunately, from what I've read, there's not that much we can do for you in this situation but hope that you remain safe and able to receive the help you need.

hugs & smiles
Emelye

[bunny]

oh thankyou emelye. i was so scared everyone in the internet knew my address.

i think maybe i have made some people on here unhappy, and i feel bad about that and part of me
thinks you should delete me so i don't make anyone esle sad. but also i want to ask questions about my brother's tanstioning. can i make a deal with you? like that tv show? where you can take the deal or the no deal?

the deal is, i can ask questions about my brother's tanstioning, like ask about how people know they want to be girls and if they can have babies and things like that, normal questions, but i won't talk about any of the bad touches at all. so you don't have to worry. i won't ever tell you, or i might just say i am going to see my psychologist when i can so i can talk to her.

and the no deal is you delete me and i won't sign back up or come here again.

do you know wat i mean?

[Renate]

You know, Bunny, your mother could join here if she has any questions, too.
There is also the chats. (The link is at the top of this page.)
You can type back and forth to all of us directly.

[Janet_Girl]

No Bunny.  You are family now and I as one of the administrator will not delete you.

As for the police, please remember that you will not get into trouble because of your brother.  Your brother would be in trouble.

But you have told your Mom and at least she knows.  If you get to see the Psychologist, you can them too.

Ask any questions and we will try to answer them.  And have your Mom come here and ask questions.

Merry Christmas, Buuny.
Janet

[bunny]

i'm not sure if mum would come here. she doesn't like computers much and she can't type very good. and i don't know if she has any questions, she knew a long time before i did that he was turning into a woman and i think she is ok with it. it makes me feel like i am a bad sister, you know, because i haven't accepted it so easily.
Post Merge: December 26, 2009, 06:43:34 AM
i tried to do the chat but i can't work out how to do it, i clicked on the link and the box came up but a thing from my computer came up and said i was denied access.

[bunny]

oh, i am so sorry. i didn't know that was upsetting people. i would hate it if people always called me by the wrong name or something. like this girl at schools name is elisa but everyone calls her eliza and she gets so mad. i'm sorry, i'll try and get it right. it is just that my whole life, you know, that person has been my brother, and now all of a sudden i have to say she and her and my sister. it is kind of hard you know? i can see the changes on her body, but to me its the same person inside. i apoligise to anyone i upset, i never even thought. i just didn't want to use first names, because i've been told not to do that on the internet, so i just said "brother" i will try and say sister from now on, ok? is it hard to put a lock on? i don't know how to use tools or anything. i worked out last night if i push my desk real hard, it stops across my door and it can't open right up. but then if i need to go to the bathroom in the night, i have to drag the desk back! if i accidintly say "him" again, i am sorry, it might slip out, but i will try real hard to say "she" from now on, ok?

[Janet_Girl]

It will take time for you to get use to using 'she', 'sister' and her name.  And with what is going on between you two, it will be hard.  But we forgive you.

I hope you are Ok, Sweety.  We do worry.


Janet