I don't want to quote Whitesnake but... Here I go again

[jillblum]

Oh not all cycles have wheels. I haven't posted in forever. I've been away form transition and hiding from myself for a few months. I'm exhausted by the day to day GID. Coming out to a few key people last summer and starting therapy felt really good. However once the relief subsided the fear krept back in and I went into emotional lock down. I don't want to wait or hide anymore. I'm over it. I don't care if I pass or lose a few friends.  I just cant do this the rest of my life. I'm jumping in the deep end this time, sink or swim...

Wow!! there's a lot of tall girls in this pool.

Thanks Susan's!

[Kay Henderson]

Best of luck to you.  There really is no viable path except straight forward, as much as we might wish otherwise sometimes.

Do what you must to get over that GID.  The sense of relief will be amazing.  I didn't realize how many aspects of my life it was affecting by always being at the forefront of my mind.