Depression.

[emoboi]

Well hey there, friend. I know that I should be happy like semi reguraly but im really not and I mean usually I don't try to feel better but that's mostly cause it's just so hard. My depression has gotten worse and I probably do need to get a therapist, but I don't know where to begin really. I'm not good with talking to people to begin with. I know I need to open up, but I'm not sure how to begin that process of telling a real in my face person.
Maybe you all could help me out or give me some tips? Anyways thanks for listening to me complain, once again.

[Muffin]

I've found it comes in waves and I now know what is happening and that it will go away and no matter how much I can convince myself of the 'best' thing to do is, I know I'll wake up feeling better.. I just knock myself out with paracetamol (mersyndol). I've never had a therapist, councillor or psychologist etc.. I don't know I don't think I could relate what I feel to them well enough, it's my problem and I feel I understand it enough to not need to discuss it.
I plan on seeing a hypnotherapist once I'm working and can afford it.. I've heard good things about hypnotherapists. Curing repressed emotional issues.. it rings a bell for me.
It makes sense we go through such intense changes mentally and physically that it's no surprise that for some of us it can be a bit much. It's just finding out the best outlet or solution for the individual. A part of me sees it as a part of transitioning and maybe a side effect of meds or the shock of such big life changes. I guess I talk to my mum a bit about my problems but she finds it hard to relate and would rather talk about clothes and TV.
I also struggle with opening up to people.. enough for it to be worthwhile. I guess understanding why you feel the way you do can help, finding a reason can be comforting.. even if it's a placebo effect, I feel it's just temporary and that it will get better further along the path once things start to fall into place ..which also helps.
I hope there is something helpful in my ramblings :S

[Cindy]

Suffering from depression is teribble. I do, and I'm on medication for it that does control it. Please try and seek help. It is possible and life is so much better when the "black dog" is in the kennel.

Muffin, sorry I hope I'm not preaching. Please don't take Paracetemol to knock yourself out. It has a terrible effect on the liver. Sadly acute Paracetemol poisoning can only be 'cured' with a liver transplant.

See you Dr for sleeping pills if need be.

Hugs

Cindy

[gothique11]

I would definitely try to find a therapist. Talk to the therapist about how you are feeling. I know that sounds a lot easier than it really is... everything sounds easier than it really is, I guess.

You don't wanna keep getting worse. I've been there lots of times, and those aren't good times. o_0

[Imadique]

I've never been good with the therapy either and I've found it a complete waste of time to be honest, opening up to a friend is much more effective IMO and slightly easier. I'm on medication and don't see any positive effect from it but I do know several people who have had good results from anti depressants, you may want to talk to a GP about that if you want to avoid the therapist.

However if you don't like that idea the strategy I employ is breaking down the problem to its root causes and putting a plan into effect to address it those causes, only works if you can convince yourself that the problem can be solved though. Even if deep down you believe the situation is hopeless at least you give yourself something else to focus on and distract yourself from getting too caught up in how miserable you are. I'm sort of doing this right now actually, I'm frantically working on an album to keep myself busy because things haven't been going so well and it's giving me something to bury myself in and ultimately a reason to keep going because it might give me a crack at having a future. Obviously it's a short term solution as the album will be finished and radio will reject it soon enough, but it works for now.

If you find a cure let me know.

[Sarah_Faith]

I've always been very open and non-judgemental when discussing other people's problems, but did not go into my own for obvious reasons...

Few years ago I had to see a psychiatrist, as I basicaly lost my mind. I found him to be dismissive of what I was saying and just prescribed more anti depressants and anti psychotics.

In recent months, however, I've been visiting a therapist that understands what I say and is open to discuss anything. The single most important thing he does for me is bring a sense of normality to this labyrinth of non-sensicalness that is GID. I leave there feeling like a normal human being and that what I carry with me is in one respect an opportunity to view the world from all different algles. I come out feeling a weight off and my first time I actually felt ecstatic to just be able to talk about this stuff openly with another human being.

Depression is something I'm certain every single one of us experiences more than we deserve. It hurts, it's hard, but you'll get there:)

See someone. Go on. Sure you might as well give it a try.

[Stella Blue]

I have depression/anxiety most of which stems from my GID, but I have no money and am struggling to find work. My parents are also struggling financially and probably could not support therapy for me. I have bad days where I dont want to get out of bed or do much of anything but for the most part I am functional and can display happiness and I do go out with friends and such. I just find it so crippling that I can't find a job and the only way to cure my depression from GID is to start taking spiro and estrogen, which I need to see a therapist for!! I also could probably use medication for anxiety, but my real goal is to begin taking hormones.

I have never attempted suicide, I have had fleeting thoughts about killing myself as quick way to end my misery but that is no way to solve anything, and as I said they are kinda just fleeting thoughts and nothing I ever came close to acting on. For now I just stick to meditation to try and relieve some stress and make myself feel better... it is really all I have. That and anything I can do to feminize my appearance more which is what I constantly do (Hey I do the best with what I have heh) I'm in the same boat as you, I am nervous about starting therapy even though I really reeaaally want to start and get going with it. The waiting is killing me!! (figuratively of course) I am certainly a bit afraid to open up to a complete stranger about all my problems and scared that they will just think I am crazy lol. I feel though once I get there in the door and begin its all going to be okay and I will find I was really scared for no reason. I just worry too much! 

[Alice]

Hang in there emoboi, I know it is hard but it does get better.

Alice

[emoboi]

I really don't think I'd benifit that much from seeing a therapist. I've been listening to music and then I can let my emotions out and after know that, It's going to be ok; I can do this. and ((((((((alice)))))))). Thanks all. 

[spacial]

If music helps you to let it all out then do so. I couldn't have gotten through several years without music.

It takes a long tme to learn who you are. Then longer to make real friends, or one.

It doesn't help having old people telling you this or that. Even though, you know, they mean well and even, that they have been through it,

your life is what you have to deal with.

Just don't try to swallow you troubles away. There is nothing in existance that can work. It's just a short cut that leads no-where.

But you will get through this.

[Lyric]

Well, let's see here. You're suffering from depression. Depression is one of the most common mood disorders. Every city has many qualified professionals who talk to and help people with that disorder every week. I'd have to politely disagree with you. I've know a number of people whose occupation it is to treat depressed people and they have a large success rate. I've seen a therapist myself for depression and the result was successful. Ignored, short term situational depression does sometimes go away. Other types do not and in fact can go on for years and be very disabling.

So, seeing a therapist= fair to great chance of improvement.
Not seeing a therapist= things might get better or might get much worse.
Make your own choice.

[emoboi]

Maybe it is the #1 choice but I feel that I can get by without it for now.

[spacial]

It doesn't help having young people telling you this or that. Even though, you know, they mean well and even, that they have not been through it, at least not enough to be handing out advice and claiming others advice is wrong, cause, like, they've been through so much of life already, that hell, gota know all that there is by now, you know? And those old people just lose it after (how old are you). Yeah, don't listen to those who've been around the block at least a few times, ya know? Once ya been around some of it, ya pretty much know all there is to know about it right? I mean, why even think about the rest, ya know?
   Yeah, music is good, its just not everything, all the time. Neither are anti-depressants. Neither is therapy. Neither is excersize, neither is a good diet. But if you work at least some kind of combination, your LONG TERM depression has a good chance of being put into remission, maybe completely, maybe even forever. Therapy is still the #1 frontline defense against depression. Truely. Not just an opinion, look into it.....really. It is #1. It is #1.  It Is #1.  #1   #1   #1   

Hold on there Ativan.

All I said was, do what makes you feel good.

I haven't been negative about anything.

I'm really sorry you seem hung up on older people. But not everyone is standing in your way.

[Lyric]

Well, if not a therapist, please try to talk to somebody about it now and then. And we're always listening here.