Okay two things happened today to blow a cold wind into my hot little world of sorrow that made me stop and think wow! I'm in my own world wallowing and this is going on!
1. got a letter from my brother who is in jail (not withstanding the fact that he is paying for his alcoholic driven crimes and its on him) he replied to my letter to him complaining about work and stupid everyday things i take for granted, he acknowledged them and then in an ironic way said well it sounds rough but today "i had to borrow a used pair of underwear from another inmate then wash them with borrowed soap from another inmate".. didn;t complain or write anything else just that tehn moved on in his letter
I'm half sick....this is my brother.. Oh God!
2. on the evening news there was a story about a man in another town close to here that was operating a large back mounted leaf blower blowing leaves on the edge of his yard by the road / highway by his house, 38 years old (same age as me-he left a wife and two kids) was blowing leaves a large construction truck swerved off the highway and hit him from behind (he never knew or seen or heard it coming)and killed him immediatly! WOW!
i sit around and sulk some days about my end coming, and i am sort of struck by this thinking? Well ya know it could have been me? Why wasn't it me? I am sort of glad it wasn't me? I would of gladly traded places with that guy? I'm feeling a lot after hearing the news story!
that's it just two big ones today! That's enough to sober me up mentally!
Hugs
Ricki
