I understand completely, I am...repulsed by body hair (not just the face, but that is the worst) and I always had problems when I shaved, I even tried to have a bit of a beard before since I didn't want to deal with shaving it... but I just wanted to rip that thing off my face.
Over the past few years I have done so much researching and work towards finding solutions for it... and now I can see that, it is at least possible to never have to shave again and while that is a long way off for me it really gives me hope.
You know, I have been thinking once every couple of months I really have a down day (usually from something like a 'warrant in debt' Virginia's ultra cool way to harass those who have no money to death). I consider myself upbeat but, some days I really question that I keep a loaded .45 in my safe...
In any case, I think it is wonderful that you are doing better today, hopefully it will be a while before you have to deal with another 'down day'.