Well as u all now in jan i was ment to be viserting charing cross gender clinic. well as u all now i could make it due to weather. so i had to cancal and the only appentment i could get was july. so i had to take it altho i was so upset and annoyed. anyways I was starting to handle the fact it will have to wait till july. But on friday i gota letter basicley saying my appintment has been canceled due to staff and now its in sep, The 1st thing i did was cry and locked myself in my room. I just felt like my life is never going to change. My doc seems to thing i have depresstion and said that the smallest thing can pisss me of as for some it maybe no big deal. well i was very very upset... so i went to my sis for the weekend. and we had a talk, as she pretty much the only person i can talk to... She told me that maybe i should change my name and start living as a male altho i do now to people i dont now as in (night clubs, meals ect) she means to everyone to my familyand friends. i thought ok yeh maybe i sould. but im a lil nerves,. not sure why. i now of people that have changed there name before theropy. and i think it could be a gd idea for4 me to do that... Any advice?. i want to start things going and maybe that is a starter from home getting used to be referd to as male mr he. and the family to get udes to a new name...
