chelli's notverygood intro'

[semie]

  (that best described my mood when I wrote this)
my names michele 22, 6 months hrt, somewhat out"", medicated for depression, I've always wanted to be a mom, and want to be a teacher like her too; but I'm wondering if I don't receive friendly hugs because I'm male, or just standoffish, I'm not sick anymore, and haven't wanted to die for 3+ months:)

really, I feel like I'm pushing this on myself, like I'm afraid people are going to be confused with me, so I say I want to be female, though I cant have my own children,
I just want to be normal, and help people. and I figure if I start living/being part of things while transitioning people wont be bad about it rather than "coming out"

[Janet_Girl]

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[K8]

Hi Michele.  Welcome to Susan's.

Starting out to find yourself can be a confusing time.  I went through a lot of different phases before I finally realized that despite everything I am a woman.  When I pretended to be a man I was too tightly wrapped to receive many hugs.  Now that the wrappings have come off, I get lots of hugs and pats and touches and just love it.

Coming out can be the toughest part - including coming out to yourself and accepting yourself for who you are.

I hope you are seeing a therapist to help you sort all these different feelings.  We all need help sometimes.

Settle in here.  There are a lot of nice people here who maybe can help you on your journey to being yourself.

- Kate

[semie]

luckily"" I come from a house that doesn't talk about personal things much, and  all my friends either I haven't seen for years, or over 60 , once I get my license I'll be seeing a therapist (I coulda now, but then I'd have to be out to my sister who I used to always deny being trans to (shes 13 years older and shop keepers always always used to comment,)

oh well, thankfully our relationship has been getting better over the months,

in my first post was about a new church, I wonder if I should BE out somehow, when I first start/feel comfortable, or if I should hope and pray people wont be too upset when I show up in a skirt,    I really don't want to confuse people, and maybe am going way too fast here,  but  hopefully these confusing issues will be relived with a therapists help,
  thats another time I denied, at 15 a school therapist asked me that, painted fingernails, other things? but I was extremely shy around personal things then.

[V M]

Welcome to Susan's Chelli  {{{HUGS}}}

[Cindy]

Hi chelli

Transitioning is always a bit weird for some reason.

I always remember Ian McKellan's (Gandalf in LOR, but a much better actor than that ) comment to an interviewer. He was told/asked; "I can never understand how someone could be Gay" He replied, "I've never understood how anyone could be straight"

Same with TG as far as I have been concerned all my life. I thought everyone was like me for a lot of my childhood and then we picked what bodies we would grow in at puberty. I was sadly disappointed at puberty

Cindy

[K8]

Michelle,
Each of us seems to do this differently, but I wanted to come out to everyone before I showed up in a skirt.  I talked to my minister, who has been very supportive.  I stood before the church one Sunday - Easter, as it turned out, the day of rebirth - and announced my hope to be reborn as what I always wanted to be - a woman.  It went very well.  I waited a few more weeks so that those who weren't there would get the word and then showed up in a skirt.  No one was surprised and all welcomed me.

This worked for me, but each of our situations is different.  Good luck as you go forward.  Let us know how it works out for you.

- Kate

EDIT:  You might also read Jessica L's reply on another thread: https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,73528.msg502406.html#msg502406
It all depends on the you and your situation.

[gennee]

Hi Chelli and welcome to Susan's.

Gennee