Hello everyone! I'm new here and I actually got referred here by.. Er. Ack. I already forgot. Oh well. Anyway, there are those who call me... Tess! *Horrible Monty Python joke* Not really, but that should be a good alias. Or you can call me Robin. I don't care. I'm not quite a girl yet (or at all), so I think the androgynous name should be my name. But I like Tess. Bah.
As you can see, I second guess myself ALL THE TIME. That, and I have an insanely forgetful memory. So I thought you guys might like to know that. Oh, and I love to talk on forums. You will see that sometime soon, I'm absolutely positive of it. Don't be surprised when an essay under my name pops up and you wish to cry in a corner because you don't want to read it all. Trust me, I've had a few people who have had their eyes dry out just trying to read ONE of my posts. Haha.
Anyway, I'm 20 years old, and currently a crossdresser working towards MTF. The journey is going to be long and tough, filled with blood, sweat, and tears.. Quite literally. Unfortunately the only person who knows about this is my brother who happened to walk into my room one day without knocking. So I didn't have time to throw on a blanket....... And now all of you. Ha. So I think that covers the intro. Oh yeah, I talk to "myself" all the time. I.. Don't know how to really word it. Uh.. Well, I guess I can give it a shot just for the sake of an intro about me (and getting this off my chest).
When I talk, I don't think about anything at all, it just pours out naturally, so you get 100% of how I feel. But when I talk to "myself", then I talk to my mind without thinking. If that makes sense. When I think, I use that as a second me. So then my body replies without thought, therefore creating the illusion to myself that I am two separate people, only for that time span. It's not a disorder or anything, I see it as a skill, being able to separate mind and body like that. And the phrase "you are the only one who truly understands yourself" couldn't be any closer to the truth. Haha. Hmm, maybe I should print this out and hand it out to people when I try to explain it to them. Anyway, that's me in a nutshell, minus my fetishes, but I don't think you guys wish to know that.
Edit: Ha, as the post progresses, each paragraph gets bigger. I feel sorry for those who hate to read a lot.
