It's back and im now stuggling =(

[justme19]

Hey all, have not posted here in awhile.

I tried to forget all about my fellings in witch my right gender is, witch it worked fantasic for a little while.
Not so much now, the feelings came back today and OMG they are stonger then ever!!!

Im so confused, I want to start this transition stuff, but I fell like I have too much of a opertunity in sport to pass up. But I really fell horrible today. I don't fell depressed, but I fell like it could happen really easy if I am not carfull.
I am doing somthing really bad to right now, The feelings come back today and I am already back into playing computer games again and it all fells better for awhile. sooooo confsued

the felling is just so stong. I don;t know why I am seriously shacking writing this post =(

Sorry for the useless post, i just needed to tell sombody. =)

[rejennyrated]

Well, as I think I said the last time you were here, only you can make the decision as to what to do about it.

Sadly the one thing that you can not do is to ignore the feelings thinking that they will go away permanently. As lot's of people told you, and as you are now discovering for yourself THEY WONT!

They may appear to go away for a time, but until you deal with them in some way or other they will be back.

So the only real question is what are you going to DO?

At 19 you have a great opportunity, should you decide to transition, to make a good change and live a whole adult life in your chosen gender.

I also reinterate, that these days there are several professional sportsmen and women who have actually gone through transition. Sure it cuts you out for a time, but after you complete the medical process, providing you can be shown to have no unfair advantage as a result, most sports will let you compete in your new gender.

Anyway it's your life. You have to decide. Nuff said

Welcome back.

[Naturally Blonde]

Your not really sure are you?

[Nigella]

The best thing is to talk to someone, a therapist who specialises in gender dysphoria. I kept things to myself and struggled for decades because I thought I would be rejected by my parents, friends, etc, etc. Why only today my mum said "why didn't you say anything when you were 12 and you could have had all those years, OMG I couldn't believe it. I was shy and kept it all in. In the end it got so strong I was thinking of suicide. The rest as they say is history.

Gender Dysphoria will always rear its ugly head just when you think its beat. Some do deal with it and remain in their birth gender with therapy others have to transition for peace of mind, soul and body

Stardust