Thankyou to everyone who replied, I very much appreciate your input. I've had a talk with my mother about this, and I described what my intentions were. She was surprisingly intolerant of the suggestion. I guess to most that would've been expected, but my mother is the most non-judgmental person I know, and she normally trusts that I can decide things appropriately for myself. She outright told me that this was not the answer, though, and, like many of you have suggested, that there were better alternatives. I'm seriously now considering applying for a job in Canada, and moving out of my country (I am in the middle east, I'd rather not go into specifics about my home country). Canada because my experience and education would be just enough to grant me a temporary work visa. My only problem and great fear is that I don't know anybody there, and I am not married, so there would be no one to support me. Hopefully, if this works out, I will not have to transition and can escape from these confining working conditions by moving overseas. I am very excited at the prospect!
If it so happens that I cannot get a visa, or that it will take an excessively long time (I've heard for some it takes five years or more), I will reconsider becoming a man. Honestly, men have the ability to do whatever they want in my country, there are no legal limits for when they can go outside, what kind of jobs they can apply for, I want this experience for myself. If it generates gender dysphoria in me when presently none exists, then that will be unfortunate, but as it is, I cannot continue living like this. It is unbearable and it is making me very depressed.
Thankyou once again.
