Im so stressed

[Rekka]

Although I do have a few friends helping me out, im still stressed, I don't know what it is, mabey something im missing. I have wanted to become a girl since I was 9 but I can't talk to my family about it because i'm afriad they would dissaprove and think it was aginst god, and i'm homeschooled so I can't talk to people in real life. I guess the thing majorly stressing me out is that Its gonna take me about 3 years to move out before I can even start to transition, plus I have been intrested in crossdressing...but I think thats obviously impossible in my current situation. If anyone can help me calm down, or come up with ways to relieve stress thanks ^^ Until my change, guess i'm just gonna have to do the same thing every day for 3 years like i've been doing for the last 3 years. My life is so boring -_-

[cynthialee]

Hello.
I come from an ubber religious family (well they ussed to be that way...)  and like you I knew for a fact at age 9.  Because of religious fear I waited until I was 41 to start my transition.
3 Years is not too long to wait, you just need to bide your time and prepare. I am assuming you are in your teens?
You can use this time to prepare for the time when you can transition. Do the research and plot your escape. lol

[Rekka]

Yeah, when I move out, i'm sure its gonna cost some serious money. Not only that, but I still gotta get into college too, so i'm hoping to get a scholarship. But if all goes well, the shortest it will take is 3 years. I still wonder how I will tell my family after the transition, because if I tell them now and something bad happens, that sucks. If they actually would have been understanding, but I don't tell them, do it and then tell them after the whole thing. then that sucks because I will have hid something from them. And... ahh man I am almost falling asleep just from blinking and my stress levels are off the charts, i'm gonna go et some rest. Thanks for listening ^^

[K8]

First, welcome to Susan's, Rekka. 

There's a lot of good information and good people here.  Each of our stories is unique but we have a lot in common.  Settle in, pull up a keyboard, and explore.

Be sure to look under the Announcements heading.  There you will find the rules we live by in this little world of ours:

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Look through the other stuff there, too.

And second: Try not to worry about what is far down the road – what will happen when you finally move out of the house or have finished college.  Try to keep your sights on the more near-term – what you can do now to make things easier later.

Perhaps participation in this site will help you.  Perhaps a good friend.  Perhaps you just lead a boring life for a while (haven't we all?), as you save money and gather information and gain skills that will help you later.  Don't look at the mountain, just the path in front of you.

Good luck to you as you prepare for the next few steps.

- Kate

[Metamorph]

About telling them ' after the whole thing'   I would advise you tell them first. you wouldnt be the first one to think you wish you could just go ahead and transition but it takes time and people will notice. chances are people would be less positive to you if you dont explain how you feel first - you might even get full support off them! going through all this alone is hard so if even one person accepts it then you have a true friend.

Use your 3 years to see a GP / therapist and try dressing as androginous untill you decide to tell family and friends. when you get stressed try to find distractions in hobbies. weve all been in a bad state of mind before and trust me - youll get through it.