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[Parabula]

Hey, everyone.
I'm 19, biologically male, but starting in the last half of puberty I kinda starting thinking more and more about how much more comfortable I'd be if I were born a woman.

-- But see, even now this is the first time I'm admitting it, and I'm unbelievably uncomfortable..  It's like only if I was -born- female it's okay to feel like I do..  Even though anyone can wear a dress, the social stigma alone makes me wish I was what they'd consider to be "normal."

I joined this site because I literally have nobody to talk to about this, and I'm at my wits end..   I'm losing a lot of sleep over something as simple as being happy with myself..

I feel like I'm stupid, or crazy..

And I'm not even in it for the sexual appeal, you know?
It's just a role I'd prefer to play out, because it seems so natural to me..   I mean, I even look/act like a girl, people have been confused before..

I suppose what I'm looking for is someone whose been here before, and can give me words of wisdom.  How should I feel about all this?   If I choose this road, how the hell do I tell people?

I know I probably wont get all the answers right off the bat; but I figure I can hang around until I've made a decision..  Thank you for reading, and again.. Hello.

[cynthialee]

Welcome aboard.
You have come to the right place. There are alot of people here that can say they were paniced and freaking out when they started visiting this site.
We have alot of information in the resources and library. And a wealth of information in the members who have already transitioned who seem more than happy to assist us.

[Janet_Girl]

Hi Parabula,

Welcome to our little family. Over 4400 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion.

Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams.  Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.

But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another sister.

And be sure to check out these links ( MUST READS )

• Site Terms of Service and rules to live by
  
• Standard Terms and Definitions
  
• Post Ranks ( including when you can upload an avatar)
  

Hugs and Love,
Janet

[Ms.Behavin]

I wished I had internet when I was 19.  You know I never ever liked who I was before.  Now of course, I enjoy just being me.   Though it will not solve many problems and can create many more. 

One thing is for sure, you'll not find a more understanding bunch of people (will not counting the trolls) then the guys and girls here on susans.   They are simply the nicest folks.

Welcome

Beni

[Farm Boy]

Hey Parabula!  Welcome to the site!

Don't worry about feeling uncomfortable, I know I was very nervous about initially posting on this site, but I'm glad I did!  You're not the only one who feels the way you do, (of course, none of us are exactly the same, but some of us have a lot in common) although it sure can feel that way when you have no one to talk to.  I hope you find what you're looking for here!

If, when, and how you tell people is up to you, but there are some threads about just that.  You'll probably want to check them out. 

[Cindy]

Hi Parabula

What a nice name
Don't be frightened or nervous, you are safe here. We do understand what it's like. We are a group of friends who have never met but are family. You are now one of us. Join in. One thing we do know, what it's like to be born 'wrong'. What it's like to live in fear. What it is like to be alone. Know you can have a new feeling, what it is like to have friends that understand.

Hugs Honey

Cindy

[K8]

Welcome to Susan's, Parabula. 

There's a lot of good information and good people here.  Each of our stories is unique but we have a lot in common.  Settle in, pull up a keyboard, and explore.  As Janet said, be sure to look under the Announcements heading or follow her links to the rules we live by in this little world of ours.

There are lots of people here who have been where you are, including me.  And you are normal – part of the normal diversity of life.

Coming out – telling people – can often be one of the more difficult steps.  There's a lot of information here, along with the stories of how many of us have done it.  For me, one of the hardest things was finally accepting myself – coming out to myself.  Posting your introduction was a good step in that direction.

This is a wonderful journey you are embarking on.  Happy exploring.

- Kate

[hkgurl1480]

Hi Parabula
Welcome to the fun house. 
I relate to so much of what you have said and only now at 39 years old am i really doing something positive about it.  So well done for facing up to it at such a young age.
Before rushing into anything do some research and learn as much as you can.
If you can get to a gender therapist, that can really help heaps to make some sense of what's in your head.

Of course there is lots of support and information here so check it out.

All the best on your journey

Hugs
Shelly

[Parabula]

Thanks, everyone..   I know its probably commonplace by now to see a newcomer all nervous and confused, but thanks for being so understanding and family-like..  I was kinda thinking I did something wrong after I posted.. heh heh..   

I'm going to glance through some of the threads around here--  I'll ask if I need to know something, or whatnot..
And feel free to send a PM or two, I could use a friend that knows about this side of me.


Thanks, again..

[nmason]

Welcome.
There is more support for us now, but when I was your age not alot was around. Not even internet

[jesse]

hi hun welcome to susans you will not be able to pm until you make 15 posts welcome when you can pm me anytime id be happy to talk to you
jessica