Well, I'm going to do my best to sum things up without going on for too long ^^; I'm 22, 23 May 26th, I've known I was TG since well... a little kid. I had a really tough childhood, my brother died of a drug O.D. when I was 4 (he was 15,) my family is extremely conservative baptist, and pretty much even since the age of about 5, I convinced myself I couldn't tell them how I felt...
When I was 16, I fell in love with a TG girl I met online, I moved to her in Atlanta after visiting twice when I was 19. During the entire period, 16-20, I helped her transition. She was two years older than me- Sadly, right before I was to move there, I was in a car accident, which proved to be very debilitating over time- After 6 months, I could no longer work the job I had there to support myself living away from home, and my insurance required me to move back to my well, abusive family in Minnesota for medical treatment. We did end up breaking up at that point...
Anyways, I suppressed my personal feelings about myself for years, due to my family and well my height. I'm 6'6" when it comes down to it, which will be a burden, but I passed the point of no return back in December, I just cracked, and I'm pushing myself forward. Despite a lot of personal anguish, especially with my mother, whom I did make the decision to come out to... I'm happier then ever in my life.
As it is, I have no friends here- In real life, as the only two I had that would have been understanding, moved out of state about a year ago, and for other reasons (mainly my family) that keep me limited from socializing in a large number of situations. I do have a partner, in an alternate D/s relationship, I visited her for two weeks in March in Oklahoma, and she's extremely of supportive of me, probably the one good supportive person I have close to me in my life at the moment.
I came out to my mom back in January, and no- It didn't go well, but I didn't expect it to, since then we've had further and further talks, and I've done my best to help her understand. Unfortunately tonight, I was feeling really vulnerable, and I kind of went out to the livingroom and sat close to her on the couch, though I sat on the floor and tried to talk, and ended up just crying. She completely ignored everything, not even a sound or motion of acknowledgement... So I guess, not the best of nights, luckily appointment with my Psychiatrist tomorrow... So I'll be able to talk about it with someone.
Anyways, I wanted to introduce myself, I've personally helped see 4 friends through transition, and am here to give my utmost support to the community... I'm just finding myself in a spot needing support myself, just because of everything... Even though I feel bad bringing it up/asking for help (self esteem issues.) But I just wanted to introduce myself and offer any love and support I can to the community! ^.^
Edit: I have been diagnosed after my first visit actually to my Psychiatrist, and the first tests as having GID, and will be starting hormones in May hehe. Though, I did self administer for 6 months in the past, they made me quit completely before any follow up visits at the clinic. Take care everyone! ^^;
