A few months back i was taking a very low dose of E and the feeling of liberation was amazing. I was given a taste of what it should be like to be me. Unfortunately i had to stop for a number of reasons.
I could feel the T taking back its control of my mind. For weeks i could not figure out why i wasn't happy when i should have been. It was like a light fog had settled on my mind.
So anyway, on Saturday i started taking Finasteride. A small step i know but the psychological change has been amazing. The fog has lifted and i feel fabulous. It's like sunshine after the rain.
I realise any changes from the fin will be slow, but can anyone tell me of their experience as far as changes in hair growth, or lack thereof? Did you get any back that you had lost previously? Did speed of growth and thickness of body hair decrease?
Since poetry seems to the theme recently, here is one of mine that sums up how i feel about T.
Poison running through my veins,
burning, twisting, torturing;
mind, heart and soul trapped.
Trapped, there is no escape.
Look in the mirror
see what it has done,
a monster looks back.
Its not me, its not me
Don't let it be real.
It holds me, wraps me in chains,
shocking, hiding, fading me out.
Don't let it end this way.
It's just not right, it's just not me,
it shouldn't be this way.
Why is it doing this to me,
disfiguring, ugly, harsh.
Shut my eyes I cannot look.
Don't let it reign, fight this thing,
must overcome this evil oppressor,
it can be done there is a way.
Look for the light, it can be found,
wash the toxic mess away.
I can be free, I can be me.
There is relief, break these chains.
Sooth my veins, release my mind.
The cool softness flows like silk.
The beloved, the friends, the saviours alike
lift you up, soar like a bird, be free.
Hugs to all
Shelly
xx