Dude, I have days like the above when everyone addresses me as or verbalizes the fact that they think I'm female or when I get body image hatred so bad that I get just about impossible to be around.
Usually, I get to a place where I can do this and I run until I'm exhausted. This either makes me feel incredibly powerful or too tired to really think about fighting. This works fairly well for me, but when I'm angry in the moment, I slap my face with my hand. Yes, weird, but it lets me bottle up some of that anger/frustration and save it for later.
I'm also known to rant a lot to my sister or my dad, as both are really good listeners and they seem to understand my transitioning fairly well. I am an animal guy, personally, so going to visit my horse, goats or holding my cat in my lap calms me down. My girlfriend and I don't really talk about my being born FTM much, but just talking about even an unrelated subject helps my anger ebb away.
I'm straight, as well, but I'd imagine finding a boyfriend is similar to finding a girlfriend, which means I have absolutely no advice to give except maybe join a local group that focuses around something that interests you, perhaps? Maybe there might be someone there for you who shares the same interests?
