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How long did you wait to come out, do you regret not comming out sooner?

Started by justme19, May 18, 2010, 02:08:12 AM

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I reply even though it's MTF.

Funny, because a little bit back my mom broke down a bit and told me that I should have told her sooner. But I couldn't, because for a good while I thought that all the things I hated about my body and such were normal. I wasn't quite sure for a while before coming out. I came out at the right time, but it's a shame I didn't figure it out sooner. Maybe I could have gotten myself puberty blockers or something. I would have a lot less angst if that happened I think.
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Arch

I guess it depends on what you mean by "coming out." But from the time I found out that female-bodied people can transition, I took almost twenty years to fully "come out" as transsexual to other people. Before 2008, I went through various stages of acceptance and denial:

Omigosh I'm a transsexual...no, that's too scary; I'm a cross dresser.
Omigosh I'm transgender...wait, no, that's too close to transsexual.
Now that I'm on depression meds, I can accept that I'm transgender and maybe transsexual.
Something has to give. I'm not trans I'm not trans I'm not trans.
I AM A GAY MAN, DAMMIT!!!!

I went through what I had to go through. That is all.
"The hammer is my penis." --Captain Hammer

"When all you have is a hammer . . ." --Anonymous carpenter
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cynthialee

Quote from: cerealnmuffin on May 20, 2010, 11:14:36 PM
I came out at 23 and went on hormones and fulltime just after that.  My family doesnt accept this at all, and it's been 4 years. I am struggling with not coming out earlier.  I never adopted a male persona and even psuedo told my mom at 11, but they still acted like they had no clue.  I regret not starting in my teens.  People say 23 is still pretty young, but I feel like I waited too long and will never forgive myself for it.
Oh sweety dont feel that way. 23 is a good age. Yes you have let T do it dirty work, however it gets worse as the years go by. I am 42 and only 6 months into transition. Yes I am a little biter that I waited so long but we are here and that must count for something.
So it is said that if you know your enemies and know yourself, you can win a hundred battles without a single loss.
If you only know yourself, but not your opponent, you may win or may lose.
If you know neither yourself nor your enemy, you will always endanger yourself.
Sun Tsu 'The art of War'
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K8

Quote from: Laura Hope on May 20, 2010, 11:58:02 PM
Laying aside that there was no practical possibility of coming out in MS in the 70's (i.e. as a teen)

I was 26 when the first "sex change" operation was performed in the US.  I didn't find out about it for another 15 years.  I came out when I was ready.  No regrets.  We do the best we can and move on from there.

- Kate
Life is a pilgrimage.
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Rock_chick

If you define coming out as telling a close friend that "I was secretly a girl" then I did it aged 19 (she then mortified me by telling my housemate!). However, much like Kate I don't think i was ready...for a number of reasons. But I'm ready now and that's all that matters.
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marleen

It took me over 30 years starting from first realisation something was wrong (aged around 7) But it took me roughly the same amount of years to find peace with myself as a transsexual person, and accept how it would determine the rest of my life. That started happening at the end of 2008, and one year later I outed myself for the first time.
Should I have done it sooner? don't think so, as I simply wasn't ready. Should I have accepted myself sooner? Definitely :-)

Marleen
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tekla

If by 'out' you mean dressing in public, at least a little bit, then I was out in HS, at least when I wasn't in school (the priests had no sense of humor, and even less sense of style).  No one cared, but they were freaks, and I guess they though I was suitable freaky enough.  Though there were several girls that really liked it.
FIGHT APATHY!, or don't...
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Bam

I came out when i was 52 and at times i wish i had come out earlier,but then i would not have my wife of 40 years stay with me,which anyway it went was worth the wait.We live a platonic life but still do everything together and she has been an immense help in my transition.Bio woman know all about how to be a woman and i now pass easily.
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Bam

Everyone calls me smiley now so i guess that means i made the right choice and i know i did,loving life like i never thought i could!!!
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MyKa

When i was 7 or 8 don't remember the exact year my mother brought me to a counselor. I never told the man nothing about how i was felling for i was scared what everyone would think. Still till this day i haven't told anybody for the fear of losing friends or the rejection from family members. I know everyone says it isn't that bad but for me i'd rather jump off a bridge than let everyone down with the news i need to tell. It's like i have played the part in this male role as best i could but for how much longer i don't know?
Dream as if you'll live forever, Live as if you'll die today.....J.Dean
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Calistine

I came out to myself for the first time when I was 15 but I clearly wasn't ready because I was talked out of it. I came out again at 17 and realized I couldn't turn back this time. I wish I came out when I was little but now was better than 15-god forbid my parents made me wait it would be slower and more painful.
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placeholdername

I told one person when I was maybe 17, but I wasn't ready to really come out then.  I'm sort of in limbo at the moment -- out to my parents but not out to my friends (of course I came out to my parents before I even met my current friends a few weeks ago so...).
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vlmitchell

29 and yes, I wish to hell I'd gotten this out of the way sooner but I'm really glad that I finally got through it!

I came out around six times beforehand and then had a handy trick were I can actually make myself forget about something. When I finally made the decision to transition (two days after admitting it to myself finally) it was to a chorus of either "Yeah, I kinda guessed that." or "Yeah, you already told me N number of years ago" (whereby N is a value greater than 4 and less than 29).

Now though, I'm really at peace because no matter when it happened, it's freaking done!
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jacquie

Quote from: justme19 on May 18, 2010, 02:08:12 AM
the title pretty much sum's the whole topic up.
What would you change when you came out, should you have done it sooner or changed the way that you came out?

By the way, I also did use the Search butten, but nothing came up.
I came out to my doctor and my wife 2yrs ago I am 60 yet to get hormones thanks to my doctor but it will happen
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Dryad

All my friends know. My Christian growing-out-of-being-extremist brother knows..
But my parents.. Well; they probably know, but I haven't outright told them. A few months back, at a family dinner, my mother popped the question: Do you wish you were a woman? So I replied: Yes, actually. She just nodded, went: 'okay,' and continued eating.
My father really doesn't seem to care either way, but then again; he never understood what all the gender/sexuality fuss was all about.
I should have been honest and open to my parents when I was five, and asking questions about anything related to reproduction. (Though I did ask, a once, why I wasn't born a girl, and my mother couldn't answer me. My father.. Was way too busy working, so I didn't bother him much.)
During my late teens, I didn't tell because I was too afraid of my father losing his job. He's a reverend for a church, and while that church is quite open to homosexuals, they believe, on the whole, that everything God creates is perfect. If you want to be something else than you're created as, well; you're in for questioning. Not that I really cared; I didn't go to church that often, and had been openly atheist for years, but that was all right. Anyway; I was too afraid that Higher Management might take offence at a reverend's son being his daughter. And I don't know if you know many priests, vicars, reverends or other spiritual leaders, but trust me when I say: Their work is usually their life.

So here I am, hanging from the 'not quite free, but dangling out of the window.' And yes; I've waited far too long. For my liking, anyway. On the other hand: If I had come out when I was five, I don't know what my life would have been like. I might not even have met my partner at all. There's a bright side to nearly everything, if only you look for them.
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cynthialee

I have come to the conclusion that I did the right thing by not comeing out at 9 but I have no excuses for not being real after 20. When I finaly understood and had a word for this little issue I was living with a super religious and violent grandmother. I am pretty sure she probably would have beaten me severly. She was uber anti gay and I was of the opinion I was probably gay and being this way was a result of being gay. (kinda gets complicated by my being sexualy orientated to females primarily ) I know better now. Anyways I didn't get away from her influence until I was about 12 and by then society had me well programed, including a false faith and religious prejudice's. I got over that around 20 but it took me 2 years to go see a psych and I got bad information. ..'your a transvetite, it is a sickness, you need to stop this fetish imediatly or you will always have problems with relationships...etc etc. I am sure you all know that song and dance.
I bought that crap and took it to heart and tryed to bury any trace of Cynthia. 20 years later here we are. Yay!
(stupid pshrink and his prejudices)
So it is said that if you know your enemies and know yourself, you can win a hundred battles without a single loss.
If you only know yourself, but not your opponent, you may win or may lose.
If you know neither yourself nor your enemy, you will always endanger yourself.
Sun Tsu 'The art of War'
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K8

Quote from: Dryad on May 28, 2010, 09:08:56 AM
they believe, on the whole, that everything God creates is perfect. If you want to be something else than you're created as, well; you're in for questioning.

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But why am I not perfect as a transsexual?  I am as God created me and am just part of the diversity of life.  Just because some human thinks I'm not perfect doesn't mean that God doesn't.  I didn't want to be a woman born anatomically male - I just am.
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- Kate
Life is a pilgrimage.
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Vancha

I came out at seventeen, although I'd mentioned it as far back as ten or so.  I wasn't a highly communicative child, so that's probably why, at five or six when I remember thinking about it and even telling my younger brother about it, I didn't communicate anything to my parents.  Now, a year after "coming out", although for me it was so anti-climactic that I told my father while laughing as if it were only an afterthought, I'm finally truly on my way.  I think we all want to do it sooner.  I wish I would have done it before puberty, even though I'm still fairly young.
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Dryad

Quote from: K8 on May 28, 2010, 10:52:37 AM
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But why am I not perfect as a transsexual?  I am as God created me and am just part of the diversity of life.  Just because some human thinks I'm not perfect doesn't mean that God doesn't.  I didn't want to be a woman born anatomically male - I just am.
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- Kate
Well.. I dunno why. I never believed in a deity, really, and always took it for a symbol of the experience of love in general, rather than a creator, force, or personification of anything.
I don't know why they even believe in something as silly and boring as perfection, in the first place... I don't think anyone is perfect, and I believe perfection itself is the grandest flaw you can get, as it would homogenize everything. But yeah.. Basically, those people believe that you are created as you are because Gods wants you to be, and that you're not allowed to change anything about yourself. Being a transexual is okay, as long as you remain your birth-sex, and don't 'cross-dress.' :S
Yeah.. I don't understand it, either.
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Let's get back on topic!
QuoteI think we all want to do it sooner.  I wish I would have done it before puberty, even though I'm still fairly young.
This. So very much.
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Arch

When I was really young, I didn't fully understand that I wasn't a "real boy." When I did understand, I played tomboy. But I was male in my head.

I don't consider that "coming out." More like "going in." ;D

When I was fifteen, sixteen, or seventeen, I remarked to my father that I felt like a thirteen-year-old boy. Then I added, "Or fifteen," maybe because that was my actual age or closer to my actual age? I'm not sure. My father only said, "Why not fourteen?" I had no answer, and that's as far as it went.

I don't remember how the topic came up that day. But in recent years, I have found myself wishing that my father had actually kept me talking.

It's just wishful thinking--my dream of having my father all to myself and no mother. In reality, it would have been disastrous if the fantasy scenario had played out because my mother was very much in the picture. But I still believe that my father would have accepted me. Maybe not at first, but eventually.
"The hammer is my penis." --Captain Hammer

"When all you have is a hammer . . ." --Anonymous carpenter
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