i can convince my mind of anything , it's like i have a special ability to brainwash myself , well at least temporarily ,like an aspirin pill
but still , i'll have to face the reality soon , i can't just stay inside hiding forever . sooner or later i'll have to face that pile of trouble at hand , or the consequences will come to me
not knowing what to do , not having anyone that can help even with advice , i feel so lost. i wish my dad was around , i'd tell him everything and he'd know what to do
add to that ,too many brainwashing myself through the years that i forgot who i am . i don't know who i am anymore