WHY!?

[Shiro M.]

Why don't I feel any better,why don't I have any friends, why don't my parents understand. WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! I CAN;T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!! WHY!!!!!!!!!!! WHY ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT TO DIEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

[Hermione01]

*Hugs*

I understand how you feel. 

Maybe you will have to find the right people to reach out to in real life. I can't think of anything to add right now, I just want to let you know you're not alone.

[nathan]

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Relax_(song)

Because.

[uni]

Why does everyone want to die today?

[spacial]

I don't know if this helps, but what you're feeling is the same as so many of us have been through.

You have friends here. real friends.

The rest, these are mountains which you need to climb over before you get your your promised land.

[Bam]

Shiro M. Been there felt that,but the end is worth it!!!

[ifonlyican14]

this has happened to all of us
may be you are lucky for telling your parents and friends
they didnot accept this but you have told them
some people can't tell any one and have to live in this misery for along time.
but i have found peace and friends here
don't be upset

[Ayaname]

Why don't I feel any better,why don't I have any friends, why don't my parents understand. WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! I CAN;T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!! WHY!!!!!!!!!!! WHY ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT TO DIEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

Same:(

[Shiro M.]

I'm at my limit. I just got beat up in my neighborhood for wearing girl jeans, they broke two ribs and my wrist(I can tell cause I can feel the bones shift) My cat that was previously my only friend will not let me close anymore and tore my wrist to shreds, almost literally. And I can't even accept myself, and my dad loathes me. I cry all the time now, atleast once every hour(not exagerating) And I actually tried to cut my penis off, but lost my nerver cause of the pain. I actually find it fun to cut myself now, not just out of frustration anymore. I'm dying inside, I'm haluecinating too. I dream of me getting killed. I cry out in my sleep. Sometimes I hear voices. I laugh at myself in the mirror. And I actually did a small amount of heroin. I'm goint to get banned for this post but who wants me around anyway? The color of blood seems to be becoming my favorite color now. I think I'm becomin a maniac by definition now. It might be fun. Straight jackets look fun to try and get out of, I'll never be alone anyway... And my nose is bleeding again. People said I was gonna have such a bright future, but oh well. No I will sit and watch in silence as the admins ban my IP and people call me names. I'm looking forward to what termonolagies you can come up with to attempt to wound me.

[Nicky]

Hey Shiro Honey, nobody is going to ban you,

Gosh, you are in a bad place. Have you thought of getting some professional support? A counsellor or therapist? It sounds like things are really awful for you at the moment. This self destructive behaviour is not good. You deserve better.

Get your ribs and wrist looked at ok?

[Flan]

might want to see a doc about that, just saying...
(and then a psychologist to help with the other issues)

[Shiro M.]

Oh no no no. The doctor won't do at all, useless meds at imprsonment isn't my thing, they'll probably find stuff in my blood that'll get me arrested. Im past any of that, this guys telling me i shouldn't go.

[Nicky]

No, they won't test your blood sweety.

You should get that wrist set, otherwise you will regret it later. I know if feels like you have no worth and so you can do ->-bleeped-<- to your own body, but this feeling does not have to last forever, you can get help.

[Shiro M.]

I want to die, so no help for me. just crying sorrow and pain. i just want someone to cuddle me just once. before i die.

[lilacwoman]

In England we have organisations like The Samaritans who have phone lines to offices in every area with people who you can talk to and ask to get you some help...there are lots of other organisation to help youngsterss...there mus be similar in your area...get the phone book and look for Aid Organsations, Youth Counselling, etc etc..

you are just having it a bit worse than most but not as bad as some I know...my friend got the kicking from father and ended up in hospital with broken ribs, jaw, wrist and elbow...some people just hate transsexuals for no real reason except sheer stupidity.

[Shiro M.]

I can't even feel anything anymore...
Post Merge: June 08, 2010, 02:42:25 AM
My dad just threatened to cut me off from everything, including therapy. I'm at my wits end, if anyone lives in Colorado, please come pick me at 18002 Grant Cr. East unit B. Please just take me to group home. I'm 14, I'll post a picture of myself ASAP. Don't moderate this post, I'm not lying, I can't go to the hospital, I just need to leave. Please, I'm crying as I'm typing this please.

[ifonlyican14]

she needs help, can any one help?
i though this is happening in middle eas only
it seems that we have to suffer where ever we are