QuoteThere's nothing wrong with that look. I actually thought it was very nice even before I read your comment. Maybe its not just us CD's who worry about having the look just right .
Thanks Shelly, and no, there isn't anything wrong with that look, but it is not a "look" it is *Me*,and it is the way I am the most comfortable in any situation or environment. It's the way I have always dressed, over 4 decades, even as male, other then a short period of time when I messed with skirts and heels in a comformity stage which was actually fairly short lived as I just wasn't comfortable with it, and I see no reason to change my basic taste or conform to anothers concept of image. What I do worry about sometimes is my own vanity streak and the way it relates to my self image on some issues, and yes, some could see some simularity to CD's in it, until you look closer.
My own "vanity" issues have to do about idientification for perm perpsoses and nothing to do with being seen as sexy. In clothing, I have always disliked loose material because it snags and offers a hold, something to grab onto, thus form fitting, mind you, not actually tight or restricting, just close and never restricting. Part of the truth is i have always been rather body proud and simply like to show it off. A bit of exibitionist I imagine, but there has never been an attempt at deliberate sex appeal. I don't really like what that says, but is what it boils down to.
The breast issue is one I need to do some thinking about. before HRT I didn't really pay it much attention and I never used forms or such things, but lately, I seem to put to much stock in them as an external identification feature, and I know better, that is what makes it hard for me to understand. Is something I need to work out as it means something in me has changed and I'm not sure what that something is.
Whatever it is, it needs to be put in perspective as I would perceive it to indicate a creeping lack of self confidence, which is something I can't allow to take deeper root. I am more then a sum of my body parts and the quicker I make it back to that totally concious realisation, the better off I will be.
I see it as using them to "Prove" something and that kind of thinking is just all wrong, so my problem ..... If I realize this and can see it for what it is, why does it bother me and why is it so hard to correct? If my breasts arn't perfect, then they arn't perfect, so what? makes no sense to me, but a lot of things don't anymore as I am growing up all over again and do not have the more mature outlook that I once did. In fact, the nuerologists tell me I can't always trust my own judgement for a while yet. Perhaps that is at least partly behind the seeming loss of self confidence. It is like being a child again and that in itself irritates me, I can't afford to be childish.
No Shelly, though it is simular to the CD situation, it is from a very different perspective with different goals in mind.
In time I will put it all back in perspective, blame it on hormones I guess in the meantime, but I know better then that.
Terri
