Hello Shannonts and welcome to Susan's.
Here you will find many whom have gone through similar experiences you have shared in your post. Her you will also find many simpathetic listeners. Some will cry with you and others will feel for you in their silence, but please know you are not and will never again be alone when you are a member here at Susan's unless you choose to be. You will always be able to come and share with other like minded people that are going or have gone through things you are.
Most of us here will tell you we can't tell you what to do, that it is something you have to weigh for yourself and deside how best to move on with your life. If you have a therapist that you see I'm sure they will tell you it's not good to go on and off the hormones. I'm sure also that they will tell you only you can choose if the price for what you deeply desire is worth it or not. They may also tell you time and communication are the best tools you have to work with, allowing these loved ones to adjust to you news and figure out what it means to them, their lives and their futures. Some may come around and some may not. It may take months maybe even years. All you can do it wait and be patient and availible to answer questions they may have.
If you have not shared this site with them, I would urge you to do so when feelings and communication will permtt you to do so. The information found with in the different avenues here in the site are very helpful in educating others about your desires. They too can find others here that have been in the same shoes your signifigant others in your life are now. Visiting with them maybe very helpful.
I am S.O. to Leah. She and I were married for close to 20 years before she shared this secret of her desire to become a female. We have recently celebrated our 25 wedding anniversary. I gues it's almost 7 years of adjusting we have shared since that news was shared. We didn't have Susan's for support until we stumbled upon the site a year ago. I will share that communication is what saved us really. It was through it we were able to still feel the love we always had for one another. So please try to talk over every little thing about the issues you face. Face them together. Listen to your loved ones hear what comes from their paniced hearts. Read all you can here in the forums searching for your answers and share this site with them for them to be able to search out their answers as well. Be strong in your quest and don't throw in the towel to soon.
Smiles,
Peggiann
