Shame

[Susan]

Hannahrichter is Elleane, for anyone who has not yet figured it out. She may deny it but this has her fingerprints all over it. I didn't attend the GLBT rally as male. The use of the word guy does not necessarily denote sex.

Main Entry: guy
Function: noun
Etymology: Guy Fawkes
1 often capitalized : a grotesque effigy of Guy Fawkes traditionally displayed and burned in England on Guy Fawkes Day
2 chiefly British : a person of grotesque appearance
3 a : MAN, FELLOW b : PERSON -- used in plural to refer to the members of a group regardless of sex <saw her and the rest of the guys>
4 : INDIVIDUAL, CREATURE <the other dogs pale in companion to this little guy>

I used term 3B. You should know by now that I am very precise in my words and what I say.

As for my sexual orientation I am heterosexual. It's funny you are the only person who has a problem with my quote. The entire gay population of Clarksville loved it.

You were fired from the staff due to a previous stalking incident and now you do it again. This is not the first time Elleane has tried to out me. I received an anonymous threat to disclose my being a TS on the town's newspaper forums. While I can't prove it, the only person who knows  and who has a grudge is... You guessed it! Elleane.

You really need to cut the stalking Elleane it's beyond creepy, you are beyond creepy. get over it, get a life, and stay the ->-bleeped-<- out of mine. *pardon the language here, it's warranted*.

For the rest of you I don't hide who or what I am. At the same time I don't advertise it. I live in a small Southern town. If someone asks me I tell them the truth. I am out to my family and friends. I am out to the GLBT community in town. Heck most of the rest of town probably knows. When I feel I pass well enough I will change my name legally. At that point I will use the name Susan with everyone. I dress full time. I get maam'd occasionally. I do not wear makeup. Ask me any questions and I will answer them. But I am ashamed that some of you bought into Elleanes character assassination attempt.

Oh as for the title of this topic, Shame is when you are doing something underhanded or being deceitful. I never say or do anything in public or private that I would not want to share each and every one of you. If you live your lives in the same way, you never have to feel shame again.

Hello Susan.

I just thought that you should be aware of this topic started by hannahrichter here:

https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,7926.0.html

You will notice my reply, and shortly afterwards Hanna emailed me and said that she was referring to you and the fact that you attended a GLBT rally as X.  She sent me a link to the Newspaper article, and I contacted the writer as follows and he finally got back to me:

Ms. Craxford,

What was in the paper was the extent of my interview with Mr. X. I just asked him why he attended the rally and what he thought of the proposed amendment.

X

On 11/22/06 7:23 PM, "The Craxford's" <X> wrote:

Hello X

I was directed to the article below by an acquaintance and I would be very interested in seeing the whole article particularly the interview with X, if that is possible.

The article:
X

Thanks in advance.

Sincerely yours

Stephanie Craxford
Ontario, Canada

I'm not sure if you have a history with this person, or why she seems to be maligning you on your own web site.  I don't see where there is a problem with you doing an interview as X as many of us have done in similar situations.

Regardless, I just thought that you should be aware of this topic hon, as the topic is about you.

Steph

[Elizabeth]

Hi everyone,

You know? To start a thread to critisize someone in this manner is a bit shameful. If you have something to say, say it. If someone thinks anyone here is harming the community to the point that the rest of us need to know about it, then call it. I hate riddles and from the very beginning I already assumed there was an axe to grind, even though I was unaware they were speaking about Susan.

Everything I need to know about Susan is contained in this website. She seems very forthright and honest and seems very no-nonsense to me. I like that about this site.  I like the fact that flaming is not allowed nor back-biting or really anything negative.

The amount of effort she must have put in starting this site, not to mention actually running it tells me about her commitment to our community and I for one, if I have not said so before, am grateful. I know I don't contribute a lot, but I sure do get a lot. We are not all the same, we have different needs.

I know that our community may never be able to pull together for a variety of reasons. I totally understand why some want to live in stealth. I never wanted to be a transsexual. That is my label now. All my accomplishments diminished, my dreams discounted and my desire to live a life without guilt and shame are looked upon with disgust by a large percentage of our society. Who would willingly choose to identify with us? It's a handicap.  That means only people with the desire to really help others through this can be expected to stay around and help.

Do some think they are better than others? Sure, but this is in every social grouping everywhere. It's not uncommon for people to hold that thier values are the correct ones and anyone who does not share those values must be inferior.

It is up to each one of us to find our own way through this. It's places like this, and people like this that make that task easier.  The thing about free advise is this. Take what is useful to you, and leave the rest. People can not be treated inferior because they decide what is best for them, is not what was best for someone else.

And lastly, one of the most important functions of this site is keeping it's members anonymous. I am completely out now and don't really care who knows, but that was not always true. There was a time when being outted would have really hurt me, and my family. I was blackmailed for years by my ex-wife. It is up to each person to decide how and what to keep secret and trying to fault Susan for this, I find extremely hipocritical.

Love always,
Elizabeth

[Susan]

I think some people have not understood my first post. This individual is not a postop but  MtoF preop.

What made me so ashamed of this person is  they have every chance to transition: acceptance, family, job, support usw...

For those who have to struggle daily with being accepted for who we truly are, it is very hard to take and depressing to see such people being such hypocrites.

The one thing she left out which is unarguably the important to transitioning is money, I have food, clothing, rent, credit card, cable, gas, insurance, the costs related to the web site, and the fact that I the fact that the job I am working doesn't pay a lot but it does cover most of the expenses of running a site as large as this one would normally incur (Bandwidth fees). After that I am generally left $50-100 per week extra.

I bring this up not to sounds pitiful, which I am sure how it does sound, but to point out to anyone who has any doubt remaining about me why I have not fully transitioned yet, and why I am still a preop after all these years.

I have considered adding Google Adwords to the site at some point, and possibly a donation box to allow those who wish the ability to help cover the site expenses, transition expenses, and surgical expenses. I have resisted monetizing this site all these years but may be close to finally exploring that as an option.