So how many of you used to/still do cut yourselves?

[elvistears]

Hey guys, speaking of kicking and smashing stuff.....

I smashed in the window on my back door.  I didn't even kick it that hard but I guess I don't know my strength when I'm mad.  At least its an excuse for me to finally put a cat door in.

[K@I]

yes, i used to quite alot, but now i probably cut on very rare ocaasions. My scars have completely covered my arm from my wrist up to my shoulder. I need plastic surgery to fix it as the scars were very deep and left very bad scarring that is very noticeable. I'd advise anyone wanting to cut, to not do it as it can become an addiction like it did for me, and once you finally get over it, you'll be left with horrendous scars for the rest of your life

[VampyreAri]

Never actually cut myself... Too scared of doing permanent damage. But I've come closer than I'd care to admit.

Mostly though, I'd go one of two routes... 1. Start snapping at my wrists with a rubber band until they bruised... 2. Claw at my arms hard enough to leave scratch marks. Buuut my boyfriend wasn't too pleased when he found out about those little habits. So I've been forced to quit... And I've succeeded except for a few relapses. My new problem right now is picking at any small scratches/marks/bug bites I have until they bleed, scab, and scar...

[Yakshini]

I guess you  could say that I still do cut. I use to hurt myself very extensively, but when I started dating and becoming sexually active, I couldn't do it as much or by using my preferred methods. I went from  cutting multiple times a day to once every few months when I've had an  exceptionally bad day.

[Squirrel698]

I've only cut a few times.  I can see the appeal.  However what I'm more likely to do is scald myself with extremely hot water down there.  It is more or less punishment to my body / genitals for being the way it is.  I've had burns halfway down my thighs from the water.  Unfortunately I don't see myself stopping.  Crazy as this sounds it really just feels way to good to stop

[jarvlee]

http://yfrog.com/1500001fxwj That's the less scarred side, the other side had stitches at that time, don't want to trigger anyone.

Used to do it pretty bad, had to be hospitalized a number of times. Now I've got what's been described as 'tiger stripes' or 'lattice pie' from the shoulder down to the wrists on both sides of my arms, and 20K in medical debt, to show for it. The left side is scars on top of scars, so the whole thing is just a ripply-scar-y mess reminiscent of what you'd find on a burn victim, with some minor nerve damage.

The last time I did was sometime in June of last year... Which makes, yeah, a year, which is the longest I've gone without doing it. The occasion that happened a year ago was also the first time in three months that I'd done it, so it had already gotten fewer and farther between. I actually haven't even thought about doing it either, so I'm going with a hopeful 'never again'.

I too was a really bad cutter. I'm just about to have 6 major surgeries on my arms to have them all skin grafted. I have nerve damage, I cut through my tendons a few times and when my arms are Xrayed you can see chunks chipped away from cutting. I've now been cut free for almost 2 years and it was the best and hardest decision I've ever made. I'm also getting my arms fixed for free through the government which is a bonus.

[Al James]

with the tattoos thing - i use it as a release. i ve also made myself a promise that i wont cut across any of my tattoos which is probably why i have so many of them!

[Scotty72]

I never saw the attraction in cutting.  I had several girlfriends who did, but they only did scratches for attention.

Though I don't cut, I used to (and rarely still do) beat things up and chuck things around the house, while yelling names at no one imparticular.  I try not to break things, but it happens.

I mostly work out now, even just a walk around the block is my best form of release.  People tend to complicate things when I am upset, so the sooner they get away, or I get away, the sooner I can calm down.  My girlfriend has learned its best to let me be for some time before trying to talk about it.

[gilligan]

I like to say i used to if someone asked, because that is true and my arms show it. what (most people) don't know is that I still do, but on much less frequent basis. I used to cut every day, multiple times per day, even in school. That was in middle school. Then I ended up getting put into a high school for emotionally impaired students in my area. I would have to say that most of the girls there were cutters, at least at one point in their life; and most of the guys had anger control issues. I guess those are people's maladaptive coping skills by stereotype.

[Lucian]

Forgot to add this to my first post...  There was a short period of time not too long ago that I indulged in a different brand of self-harm.  I used to punch myself hard in the gut, as hard as I could stand it.  Didn't leave any visible scars, but one time I did hit myself hard enough to feel it for a few days.  I haven't felt the urge to hit myself in a while though.

That's actually what I've done as well.  I've only ever cut twice (it only makes me feel better if I'm angry) but I don't do it simply because I scar easily, prominently, and I'm a very slow healer.  However, scratching myself now and then was a habit since elementary school age; and punching was a good choice for me because I could inflict pain without leaving any sort of obvious mark (it was the pain I was interested in, I didn't want scars or anything).  It became a bit of a habit last year, but I've broken it and try my best to control myself.  I see self-harm in my head and the urge to make what's in my head real is very strong, but I try to find better outlets to at least get the urge under control.

Scotty72:  man, I'd love to throw things and beat things up (besides a mattress cuz that's not at all satisfying >_>)!  When I was a kid, I did that once or twice (without damaging anything), but after the harsh talking to about mistreating my parents' house, I turned violence upon myself because that was the only thing I would be able to get away with.

[Wolf Man]

I used to cut myself. I did wimpy cuts of course, not suicidal cuts. I've used it to relieve both depression and the resulting rage of my depression.

Though I continue to experience mood swings and anger issues I no longer cut myself. Unfortunately, I continue to release brute force when things become too much, but I've learned to hit the right things so that I do not once again damage my hands. I've had both in a cast, a separate, but consecutive times.

So yeah, that's my share for the day.

[Ryuu]

I'm quitting... I have a ton of scars though. I think 50+ on my forearm, and more on my shoulder, breasts, stomach, thighs... Last one is on my thigh, but since it's summer and I want to wear fewer clothes, I need to stop since my parents think I stopped after I went to the hospital...

[insanitylives]

^^Summer. Catch 22
Can't cut really, because of exposure.
But sometimes not being able to is the biggest trigger.

[Poseidon]

I used to when I was going through severe depressive episodes, but stopped last year in december. I never cut a lot, though (I usually took part in the punching-yourself-party).