Hi! I'm new. Well, duh...
Just going to say it right off: I have a problem with parentheses over-usage.
You can call me whatever you so please, as long as it's not too vulgar. Right now I consider myself a crossdresser (with painfully obvious feminine hair
), but when I'm older and slip out from under the "ever-so-watchful" eye of my family, I plan on transitioning from female to male (That seems conflicting, doesn't it? Sorry.). So I guess now I'll tell my story.
I live in a somewhat open-minded town, despite there being a giant cornfield in my backyard (In fact, my Amish friend wants to teach me how to ride horses (I don't want to learn to ride horses at all
).). In the area, my high school is known for being, er, a little rowdy, but still having impressive test scores. We're not stupid; we just like our illegal substances.
There have always been more male role models for me in my family, and (counting half- and step-siblings) I have four brothers. I'm the youngest. Since I was a toddler, my mother has thrown guilt trips at me, saying she had only ever wanted a daughter, dressing me up to take along with her and showing me off
. Sometimes I wonder if I'm just the way I am to be spiteful, but then I put on a fitted t-shirt or hold a friend's purse for them and it just doesn't come naturally at all. In plays in English class or for Halloween, I always took the opportunity to take male roles, but now I'm realizing I don't want to just "play the boy" anymore. I want to be what I want to be and I don't want to stand around waiting for someone to say I'm allowed to.
As a sidenote, signing up for this site was one of the first times I actually read the terms and conditions before checking "accept".
