I have my first session today at 5 pm, so in about 4 hours I'll be leaving my house. I'm super nervous but excited at the same time. I've already done a free consultation with her, and we discussed several things, she even said during the consultation she'll write a letter to the Dr I have an appointment with this wed that'll allow me to start hormones. So looks like I'll be leaving the meeting today with a letter, just really really scared.
I know I want to do this, I have to do this... but I'm so nervous because now I can't keep hiding it, I'll have to talk to my parents, my dad I'm not concerned about, him and I don't have much of a relationship as it is. Really scared how my little sister will take it, the two of us have always been super close, I even gave her my old My little Pony collection after my dad said I was to old to keep playing with barbies and other girl toys.
The worst part will be my girlfriend, she is so awesome in every way but she has NO idea about this side of me, all that she knows is I'm going to a counselor to try to find out whats going on with me. I feel super selfish not telling her, but I really need her support right now. I don't want to loose her but I don't know if she can handle something like this... She's half mexican half chinese and her ENTIRE family lives in this area and we see them every weekend. Her mother adores me, even her father approves of me so this will be very devastating to her and even them. We've been together over 10 months now and she keeps bringing up marriage. So will need help with how to best tell her here in a few weeks or a month or two at the most. The sooner the better for her but idk. Just not ready to loose her yet.
Anyways, wish me luck!
