Hi Kelly,
For a long time before I consciously rediscovered my ->-bleeped-<-, I would tear up, but not cry even though I was in intense psychic agony. Once I discovered who I am, I began to cry for real and couldn't stop for a few months.
At some point, it's possible that you may just really let it go. Everybody is different, though.
If you really really want to cry right away, just stare at your paycheck for a while. If you need to laugh, I'll send you a copy of one of mine.
Best wishes,
Rebecca Fog