Hey everyone, I know a lot of people don't read these so I'll be as brief as I can.
Name's Nick, Nix, N or Chaos. Pick whichever y'like.
I've known I was misplaced since I was a kid. I pushed it down as far as I could while I was in highschool, forced myself into dresses and kept my hair long until I couldn't deal with it anymore. I was miserable as hell for a long time because of it, and eventually I just stopped caring. I cut my hair short, cut ties with people that couldn't deal with it and resigned myself to be some weird mis-gendered freak for the rest of my life. A few years ago, I started researching and trying to figure out what the hell was wrong with me, and I've been looking for similar forums ever since.
To clear it up, I am female bodied but I've always identified as male. I plan on most definitely getting top surgery as soon as I can, still not sure about bottom surgery.