Let the isolation end and the communication begin.

[Llewelyn]

My name is Llewelyn, although most of my friends call me Red. I live on PEI. When I was a child my older sister had a habit of dressing me up as a girl, and I never really thought much of it until I entered my teen years. I came to the conclusion that something wasn't quite right, a lot of people in the small community I lived thought I was gay, or strange or what-have-you based on my feminine mannerisms, but I never found myself attracted to boys. People would say I was handsome but I hated those kinds of remarks, and when hair started growing in dark on my arms and face I was mortified. I hate my square shoulders, the viens in my hands. I'm built like a man and I feel disgusted when I see myself. I can shave the hair, I can try to dress more feminine to a extent, but everytime I'm forced to speak my voice brings me back to the reality that I'm a boy. I'm going to begin the process of changing today. I won't ever fully be a women, and I'm not sure how far I will go, but I know I'll be happier with myself if I do something instead of nothing. I realize my story isn't special, I don't pretend it is. If I can help anyone else here I want to do my part. I'm picking up the phone now. -Red 

[Janet_Girl]

Hi Red  ,

Welcome to our little family. Over 5400 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion.

Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams.  Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.

But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another sister.

And be sure to check out these links ( MUST READS )

• Site Terms of Service and rules to live by
  
• Standard Terms and Definitions
  
• Post Ranks ( including when you can upload an avatar)
  

You would be surprised what can and does happen on HRT.  The voice can be trained to be in the female range.

Hugs and Love,
Janet

[michael 19 jones]

well according to your avatar, hormones should do you justice. You are very thin and look very androgynous. From the first look I thought you were a Female to Male.

I'm almost 23 and haven't started hormones but I know hormones will do very little to me cause I very female to begin with. Also, I'm like you. Grew up in a small yet large community, everyone thought I was a 'closeted' gay boy or just weird and wasn't attracted guys or girls. With one exception though, my sister never played dress up with me. Now after 3 1/2 years sense coming to myself and family and friends, I feel more like myself than I've ever been.

Welcome to Susan's Llewelyn Or Red.

[Renate]

You sound like one determined woman, Red.
Don't worry about your destination and don't sell your self short.
You may be surprised at your results.

[Samantha_Marie]

Just be you and live your life the way you want!

[Nero]

Hi Red. Is that Prince Edward Island of Anne of Green Gables fame? Wow! Is it as beautiful as in the books?

[Llewelyn]

Thank you for the supportive comments everyone, and yes its really anne land. And yes it's as beautiful as they say it is. I'm pretty sure Amrisa even if I was born a girl I'd still dress kind of neutral haha, I just wish I could walk into a ladies store without the weird looks, or people going, "oh that would look great on your girlfriend." :/ I hear a lot of people like to leave the past behind them when they complete the change, but I think I'll always be involved in this community , I always want to help others who got stuck in my shoes. Believe it or not I even know a few people still in the closet on this lil'ole island, the populations only about 130 thousand island wide and I know of at least three or four like myself. I honestly thought I could just live as a guy, but it's how other people see me, how I see myself every day, it's to much. I'd really regret it if I didn't do anything about it.