Hello

[Kairi]

Hello everybody,

I've been browsing through the forum for some time before joining. It looks like a good place to be and I hope I am right.

I'm Kairi and I am 21. I live in the UK. I am born male but ever since I was 5 I always wanted to be a girl. Of course, I never dared to tell anybody about my secret in school, but somehow they sort of figured out as I tend to participate in girly activities choose pink papers for arts and crafts. I never admitted or denied anything, but still it was rough... I got teased all the time, somehow I just lived through it. Also, I always played with the girls and I remember I had more girl friends then boy friends. I was never into football or the boy things.

My girly feeling have somewhat diminished in my secondary school years, possibly due to the stress of bullying as I guess what my soft non-machoness nature. The feelings returned towards the end of my secondary school years. Now many years later, having just graduated, I still feel the same way. I always envied the girls and that they have such beautiful bodies and they can wear all the pretty clothing and frilly dresses. It makes me sad knowing that I just can't be them.

I did the COGIATI test several times over the past few years and I'm ranked either androgyne or possible transsexual. My most recent attempt scored me +120 (androgyne), although I am probably not an androgyne, especially +120 is on the edge of andro towards the possible transsexual category. Of course, like any psychological tests, these tests contain flaws and I simply interpret the results with caution.

I've not told anybody about my situation, although I have dropped some hints to a few people during my time at university. In short, I am hoping to come to to some people this year and to think about my future. I believe I have wasted enough time as it and is time I do something about my problem... one which we all have in common.

Also, I have a keen interest in anime and manga... anyone else shares the same interest?

See you ^_^/

Kairi

[Nathan.]

Hey, welcome to Susans 

There's quite a few of us from the UK here 

I'm sure there are many girls here who can relate to your story.

[Jillieann Rose]

Hello Kairi,
Glad you joined Susan's.
This a great place to ask questions and learn about gender issues.
We have a large Wiki library and it is still growing.
Sharing with other on at Susan's is a great fist step to coming out.
And many of us here can share tips and stories on how too come out to friends and family.
That is when your ready.
See you around.
Jillieann

[K8]

Welcome to Susan's, Kairi. 

There's a lot of good information and good people here.  Each of our stories is unique but we have a lot in common.  Settle in, pull up a keyboard, and explore.

Be sure to look under the Announcements heading.  There you will find the rules we live by in this little world of ours:

• Site Terms of Service and rules to live by
  
• Standard Terms and Definitions
  
• Post Ranks (including when you can upload an avatar)
  

Look through the other stuff there, too.

Happy exploring.

- Kate

[kelly_aus]

Hello Kairi,

Welcome! You have found one of the best places for information and support. Make yourself at home. I was never a sure as you seemed to be, but like you did many girl activities through school.. I then spent until my early 30's in the closet, silly me, but have found that I can no longer maintain the pretence.. Here's at Susans, you're bound to find some useful information as well as some great people, I know I have..

Regards,
Kelly

[Janet_Girl]

Hi Kairi,

Welcome to our little family. Over 5600 strong. That would be one heck of a family reunion.

Feel free to post your successes/failures, Hopes/dreams.  Ask questions and seek answers. Give and receive advice.

But remember we are family here, your family now. And it is always nice to have another sister.

Hugs and Love,
Janet

[Kairi]

Thanks! 

[cynthialee]

Welcome aboard.
Those tests are basicaly useless. Do not place too much faith in said tests.
If you need to know if you are transsexual it is going to take alot of introspection and self analysis. Regardless if you are or not you are obviously somewhere in the transgender camp. So you have come to the right place.
There are quite a few folks here who are regular posters who are very suportive and understanding.

[Kairi]

Those tests are basicaly useless. Do not place too much faith in said tests.

Yeah I know, I have studied psychology before and I know and I learnt all the flaws of these psychological tests, it does not give a complete picture of anything. I find that the COGIATI is quite biased anyways as it assume female sterotypes in quite a few places.