Hi, there. A very curious transsexual girl.

[Shynoir]

Hi there,

I'm 21 years old and now unbelievably introverted, shy, timid, and very very quiet.

Would it make anyone mad if I be honest about it? Up until a year ago I assumed transgendered people are simply cross dressers and people who are simply kind of different, maybe even eccentric. Of course I never had anything against them. I have been through a problem since I was born, and recently discovered that transgender is just a generalized term that covers several topics and different gender roles. What I was looking for was to correct a birth defect (kind of), fix my body and live as who I was meant to be without ever looking back at the past.

I learned that a person born transsexual means he/she has a gender specific brain but a conflicting body. How accurate, I thought. That described me perfectly. However, I never really accepted the medical advances and what HRT can really do for you. Because of that I always felt that even if someone goes through MTF, they will be a fake shell (many pictures I had glanced through in the past simply scared me off the topic). I don't like this body, but do I want to mess it up and get labeled as a transgender? was what I always thought. Recently though, I found out that there are those who go through HRT and intensive surgeries, and live the life as who they were meant to be in complete stealth.

Its not about trying to pass off as a woman, for the benefit of others. This is about actually fixing the body as a genuine a girl that doesn't conflict with your naturally feminine brain. One shouldn't need makeups, develop a voice, practice walking, or dresses to prove that. That's what being a real girl is.

This changed my perspective. I don't have anything against transgenders or anything, and please don't get me wrong (in case I'm typing very poorly), I'm very open minded. I simply want to fix my body condition and live as the girl I am. I hope the forum will be able to help me with my research

Please answer my topic if you can: https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,82420.0.html Thanks in advance!

[Janet_Girl]

Hi Shynoir,

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Janet

[Shynoir]

Thanks for the welcome! Yes, I've read those

[Lacey Lynne]

You are very welcome here!  Just be yourself, and that's more than good enough for us.  You've friends and info.  Lots of both here.  Enjoy.   

[Fenrir]

Welcome! I like how you write, it conjures up a very specific voice for me, it makes me smile. 

[Debra]

Welcome!

I was raised to believe that transgender individuals were living in sin and I never questioned it until later in life so I can relate to coming to grips with the fact that it's not what you thought.

It seems like you have a lot of questions and thoughts. If interested, my blog has been my way of documenting my own transition: http://jericatruax.com

[Sarah_aus]

Hi and welcome,

I can relate to being misinformed about what being transsexual really meant growing up, pair that with coming from a primarily fundamentalist christian upbringing, (not who I am btw) left me feeling very confused, and only now starting to learn or rather un-learn what I was brought up to believe and educate myself.
You have come to the right place, there are very many friendly people here who can help you if you want the help.

Good luck and all best,

~Tali

[Cindy]

Hi Noir,
And as the other girls have said, welcome.

Reading through you introduction, and very nice one BTW. You seem to be a little worried about being labelled 'trans'. You are in very good company at this site. Most of us use the label to explain stuff but I think most of us do not feel trans anything. I do not consider myself a 'trans' woman. I am a woman with a birth defect. I am not a transvestite, there is nothing wrong with being one BTW,  just I'm not.  I'm not transgendered, I really am unclear what that word means , I have known what my gender is for a very long time, it's female.

One of my friends on the board once posted privately to me a Drs report about her; she was referred to, medically, as an XY female. I think that is good terminology. At Susan's we also have many XX males. Sometimes referred to as transmen; again a poor adjective to describe an XX male.


So don't worry about semantics. Feel free to have a prowl around, post and discuss. Oh BTW, you are now among friends and family. Welcome my girl.


Cindy

[kelly_aus]

Hi Noir,

Have another Welcome! Like Cindy said, many here simply use trans as an explanatory term.. I don't see myself as trans anything.. I'm a woman - there just seems to have been a mix up..

There is plenty of info and friendly people here, make yourself at home..

Hugs,
Kelly

[Lacey Lynne]

Hi and welcome,

I can relate to being misinformed about what being transsexual really meant growing up, pair that with coming from a primarily fundamentalist christian upbringing, (not who I am btw) left me feeling very confused, and only now starting to learn or rather un-learn what I was brought up to believe and educate myself.
You have come to the right place, there are very many friendly people here who can help you if you want the help.

Good luck and all best,

~Tali

Talitha, you are SO right.  Great comment.  I was raised fundamentalist christian also.  Never, in my wildest dreams, did I imagine that I'd one day be in the LGBT community as both trans and, because of the hormone replacement therapy, bi to my surprise.  My gender counselor told me this would likely happen. 

What you've said, you've said so well, that I really have nothing to add to it.  Thanks for your comment.     

[Argent]

I answered on the link you posted, welcome and please take a look at my comment. 

[Shynoir]

Aw thanks everyone

I have found this forum so informative and helpful. While I don't post much yet, I do read a lot. My posts may sound a little strange sometimes, but that comes out of being so search engine conscious. I'm trying a little too hard to make sure I don't simply pop up on google if anyone in my family does a search related to this in the future.


Jerica, yes I do follow your blog. Its both informative and inspiring. I have to admit though, at first I was blinded by your smile... biggest smile I ever saw! (a compliment of course)


talitha, yes religious upbringing can be troublesome when it comes to this. That's one thing I managed to slip past, my family does believe in greater powers, embrace them, but are not overly religious. They never refer any real life situation on the basis of a book or teaching. I just can't help but feel lucky about that.


Cindy, thanks! and yes, I am indeed worried about being labeled. Any label actually. Here 'trans' but not much so in these forums, but rather in real life. I typed transsexual girl, personally that's ten thousand times better than transgender girl. I personally believe that 'trans' is just a step, a period for me and when the journey ends I will have physically confirmed my true gender. I'm from India, but I'm not a typical one that one might imagine. I get all defensive even if I'm labeled Indian, its not offensive but to me that's not something I am. I'm probably the only person who follows a conflicting timezone, work online at night and go to bed at 4-5 am like clockwork, preference for food that conflicts with what everyone else is having, can't handle spice at all, little clue about the country's culture or even festivals, and don't even know the local languages but speak in English and a little Japanese. I'm quite a silly person like that~


argent, thanks, will do ^^

[Debra]

Jerica, yes I do follow your blog. Its both informative and inspiring. I have to admit though, at first I was blinded by your smile... biggest smile I ever saw! (a compliment of course)

Aww thank you. =) Glad you enjoy the blog!