One, ignore people who are rude about your spelling, grammar and typing skills. They are just acting like dicks because they have nothing better to do.
Two, everyone who has actually responded is giving good advice/input. T won't change WHO you are, some things about your personality will be different but those are commonly things that were already there. Ways you just weren't comfortable acting or feelings you didn't know how to show.... this only seems to change because people become more confident and comfortable, making it easier to communicate their desires, needs and ideas.
Three, don't worry about it changing your sexual orientation. IF you do change your sexual orientation there are a couple of things to consider. The idea of being with men may feel harder for you now because of your own physical issues, issues which may disappear with the changes brought about by T. In the long run, had you not been trans you may have honestly liked men all along and had no issue with that. I myself never liked men, I'd never met a man I cared for emotionally or one that I found physically appealing at all. Now though I am with a MTF transwoman who has not had any surgeries. We have a wonderful relationship, including the entire spectrum of sexual/physical intimacy despite that her anatomy does not match up with what I felt my sexual orientation was. I certainly don't go running down the street checking out men (or to be more accurate their lower region lol) now BUT I am open to the idea now.
Dealing with my own issues and then working through the physical issues of our relationship together I've only learned that I have no ability to hold someone's body against them when it comes to judging a partner or spouse. How absurd would it be in the end if I, being a transsexual pre-op man, would not have given her the time of day based only on how she looks or what body type she is? How can I of all people hold someone's physical body in more importance than WHO they are? Also when it comes down to it, whoever wants to be with me has to accept that my body is not perfect. While I am pre-op hormones have made me something in between, with male traits and female traits all in one physical package. How can I ask someone else to overlook that perhaps what I have to offer physically is not the most appealing thing to them and to see me as a person and love me as a person but then not give them that same respect?
I guess what I'm getting at is that it may not change your sexual orientation, but the opportunity to grow and deal with our own issues may result in you growing emotionally as well. Sexual orientation is not just about the physical body, it is about the mind, the person, their personality... I think that as a transsexual I of all people understand how all of those other things are more important than the body. If the body is a secondary characteristic of who I am, than that fact applies to other people too. I cannot judge someone for how they look or what equipment they have in their pants when I know all too well from personal experience that those things don't MAKE someone WHO they are.
