There goes the neighborhood
I went to an online forum. Since it was a big board and I have a tendency to say what's on my mind, I decided (at least I consciously thought) to use the cover of male drag for posting. Then, as I got more involved in the forum-a very hetero guy kind of forum, I started getting really into actually pretending to be male-including talking about my *ahem* junk...
And found myself WANTING TO OWN A PENIS.
I said now, "Oh boy,
this is wierd."
But I also wasn't all like "Gotta get rid of my boobs," though. I'm kind of neither here nor there about them, other than wishing they were perkier, therefore not requiring a bra (I live where it's hot a lot).
I want muscles, but am not willing to have my hairline recede(and yeah, both granddads went bald, I'm sure I've got the genes for it.)
Add to that I live in the very buckle of the bible belt-we do crazy religious wingnut right. Presenting as genderly too ambiguous is going to get me job discrimination. I don't mind what people think of me-until it impacts my paycheck-then I mind a lot.
None of this is strange terrain for me. I'm married to a woman, who, before I met, had her 'outie' turned into an 'innie'.
I feel both confused, excited, and like some sort of puzzle piece *may* have just slotted into place for me.
*waves hi*
