Everything just seems to go bad at the moment, and just seems to make it sad

I no alot of people have it wourse then me, but I just feel so sad at the moment.
I went to the my specialist docter today and he wants me to go in for a operation and it;s been booked for next tuesday

As everyone was telling me the longer you leave your GID the wourse it gets and it really is driving me CRAZY at the moment, usually I can just ingore it, but the last few weeks it's becoming unbearable!!!
I don;t no why I can;t tell anyone either, im just so hopless

I guess a good thing that happend I was hanging out my sis tonight, and we were discussing girl sport fasion... but other then that, everything just seems to be going wrong