I've become fat off of McDonald's and I'm now desperate to slim down, so I got myself some clothes that don't have chains attached to them and made my first honest attempt at physical activity in 5 years.
And f***ing ow! I made it about 1200 meters, just around the neighborhood and back.
http://goo.gl/maps/69mwMy chest burns, my lungs ache, my head is thumping, and did I mention my chest feels like it's on fire?
It was a pretty good start I think, but now I remember why I hated PE so much.
My goal is to no longer be ~100kg. I at least want to fit into my closet full of size medium clothes again. I also hope to have a body I can be proud of, because I spent so many hours aimlessly dreaming about swapping bodies or creating a new one from scratch. I finally got fed up with spending hours in bed dreaming of something I feel is impossible, and decided to do something to earn a sexy body.
My biggest fear is that I'll beef up with muscles before I can start HRT. Even before I accepted myself as female I was absolutely disgusted by muscles and never wanted to look like that. Being fat is no better though, my chest and arms still become huge and people thought I've been working out.