Nearing an operation date... Very excited but odd feelings.

[sarahm]

Hey everyone.

Due to certain circumstances I have been able to get my surgery letter, and date, down from May next year, to about 8 weeks from now.

Anyways. I am very excited about it, and am working my finances out, and wanting the time to go faster, but for some reason today seems to have gone really slow.
But, aside from that... I am getting some pretty odd thought coming into my head. I am a virgin, as I could never use the male bits for anything like that, to me... Sex was associated with pain. But yeah. Now... I have got thoughts flooding my head from time to time about sex, how it will feel, what it would be like, who I would want to have it with for my first time, how it would be, if he would like it. It's all strange.
FYI: I am not getting turned on (the guy side of it) thinking about this. I am just getting these uncontrolled thoughts, because I have been unable to have sex, and now it's like... Oh My God! I could actually do something like this after surgery... I can actually let people get close to me. As close as I would want them. I wont have to be scared any more about people seeing the bump! =D

Anyone gone through these thoughts? I'm not having second thoughts not at all.

[Muffin]

Yeah I've been having similar thoughts recently... now that the date is set and I can finally start to realistically imagine the future, it's interesting. The thought of being able to go out and meet people without worrying what could happen, and worrying about getting too close and then knowing you'll have to stop it and say goodbye to avoid issues. All that will be gone!!!!
I've also noticed something else that is kinda linked. Not sure if this is too much info but I've been on progestin for a few months now and I've noticed an increase in my libido. It's been freaking me out. I've been enjoying the past year not having to worry about any of that but it seems to have come back. It's like it's returning six months too early >____< is there anything worse than morning glory? *screams*.
*watches clock tick ever .......so ..........slowly*. 0_0