If you ask someone that's not questioning themselves at all (you're "average" cis person) they would probably come up with something totally not understandable. I've asked "normal" female friends what it's like to be female and they've said things I really don't understand. I've asked "normal" male friends what it's like to be male and they usually say, "huh?" lol Or they equate it with society's view of what it means "to be a man" - which I think is actually a totally different thing.
For me, I've always "felt" male, although I'm hard pressed to actually describe that for you. It was something I noticed early in life though. There is a point where little girls and little boys really diverge in behavior (actually I think it's that way from birth with the "normal" people but it's once personality develops that it's probably more of a noticeable thing). When that happened, I was clearly on the male side in behavior, attitude, actions, body language, things I'd say ... If the fact that I have an "F" on my birth certificate ever came up, people would look at me very strangely. It was beyond just a "tomboy" type of thing. Honestly I think something happened before I was born, because I have some slightly ambiguous features going on, yet thankfully do not have a chromosomal issue or serious health problems because of it. But I think that might have actually changed the development of my brain as well and maybe made all of this possible.
I've gotten so many labels in my life from doctors as well as just regular people. I got to a point where I just rejected every label because every new one came with a "problem". Like some doctor diagnosed me as intersex then I went through all these tests and other things because of that. Some psychologist diagnosed with anxiety-disorder and wanted to put me on pills. It's just a long list of people making judgment calls on me and wanting to "fix" me. Thankfully, I did reject them because after I did I started to accept myself and who I really am more and more. I cross the gender line all the time in appearance and I am finally feeling more comfortable with that. I figure, so what if society looks at me one day and sees female? That doesn't change who I am inside at all. I am normal, for me.
