For better or worse this is the new me

[Octavianus]

You have had sexual intercourse only a week after several surgeries? You should really be careful with your body, I hope you didn't hurt yourself.
About me introducing her to this forum, I don't know if that is a good idea or even necessary. We had a bit of a rough time a few weeks ago and things are going much better now. She hates her TS condition with a passion, and I am a bit afraid she will see this in the wrong light. After all, she is a woman first and not to be defined by any conditions. Eventually, when the time is right I will show her this place and read what I have written about her and mine feelings. Then it is up to her if she wants to join or not.

Spending time together is great, going to a ball or just staying at home and curl up on the couch to watch movies. Happyness can exist in the most simple things when you do it together.

[PixieBoy]

Angela, you have a model's face. I'm so happy you are well and alive. You look very sweet and cute in the image. I haven't seen a before image, but I think you were as cute before too. You have a very kind and sweet boyfriend too.

[JohnR]

Majorly impressive photoshop skills! Do you work in graphic design?

Hours in a hair salon chair and intercourse just a few days after major facial surgery will most likely help your bad back to heal a lot quicker. You have a very understanding hairdresser, most of them wouldn't take a client just days post op because of the strain on stitches and all the bruising.

Please keep us updated and you keep healing fast ok?

[Cruelladeville]

I had a client once, had a fast car (too early a year after getting the licence)....totalled it at over 140mph into a parked car....

When I went in to see him for the first time facially (in hospital ICU a week in) he was unrecognisable... due to the incredible swelling due to a side head impact... some of his co-workers cruelly nicknamed him Melon Man.....

He was in hospital for almost 6 weeks....then rehab took another 4 months....or so....and we all know facial scars can take years to fully clear... even you be in yer twenties....

So I'd tend to agree with JohnnieR.... a miraculous recovery....you're amazingly lucky Angela!! Perhaps that temp guardian angel avatar holds clues to your uber-swift recovery?

But all the genuine folk on Susan's (and there are many) do of course wish you all the continued best with yer recovery....

[Angela]

Im a little troubled coming back from Michaels house tonight. I had to check something on his computer, and I did not like what I found. It appears he has pictures of transexual porn saved to his computer. I  mentioned  it to him,he laughed and thought nothing much of it. But it makes me wonder if he really loves me for my personality , or because im transgender.He is so nice, am I in the wrong for letting this slide ?

[JohnR]

Oh honey, don't you just have the worst luck? How was the dancing?

Thank you Michael for being Angela's rock through this awful time.

[Angela]

John,we didnt go dancing. If you read my earlier posts ,I said im not ready for that yet. It hurts if im standing for a prolonged period of time.

[JohnR]

You are an incredible woman Angela.

[Ayaname]

Im a little troubled coming back from Michaels house tonight. I had to check something on his computer, and I did not like what I found. It appears he has pictures of transexual porn saved to his computer. I  mentioned  it to him,he laughed and thought nothing much of it. But it makes me wonder if he really loves me for my personality , or because im transgender.He is so nice, am I in the wrong for letting this slide ?

Maybe he had the porn on his computer to learn how to treat you in bed. He may have been worried about doing something unacceptable since he's never been with a trans woman before.

[Octavianus]

Maybe he had the porn on his computer to learn how to treat you in bed. He may have been worried about doing something unacceptable since he's never been with a trans woman before.

Sorry to be blunt, but why does one need transsexual porn to learn how to please a lady in bed? Is there something I missed?

[Hermione01]

I'm sorry, but I've seen this play out on another site. Didn't end well. 

[Tammy Hope]

without seeing the older pic side by side, i can't remember enough to comment - but this one looks great.

[Silver]

I never saw the old you but you're pretty.

Sorry for doubting you We had this anti-trans blogger that was stealing our pictures and we got all paranoid. Congrats/good luck with your recovery!

[Ayaname]

Sorry to be blunt, but why does one need transsexual porn to learn how to please a lady in bed? Is there something I missed?

I wouldn't know since I'm not a man who is looking forward to spending his first night with a transsexual.
You see, the problem with trying to put yourself in the shoes of someone who is ignorant about a specific subject is that it kind of makes it hard to form assumptions based on anything but not knowing. And since we at least know that the person in question is potentially ignorant on the subject I figured it was worth mentioning the possible connection between a desire to self educate and one of the most easily accessible sources of transsexual content.
I'm not making assumptions here, I'm just throwing out suggestions that could "possibly" fit and mine was one that hadn't been mentioned yet.

[JohnR]

How did you photoshop out the rhinoplasty strapping and black eyes? Removing the scarring, swelling and bruising then adding perfectly applied make up must have taken ages.

How could you have doubts about Michael?

[JohnR]

So many people have commented that they can't remember your before picture Angela. If you post it everyone can tell you how different you look now.

Did you ask Michael to remove your old picture and upload the angel as you were lying in your hospital bed recovering from your RTA or did he do that for his own reasons?

[spacial]

Im a little troubled coming back from Michaels house tonight. I had to check something on his computer, and I did not like what I found. It appears he has pictures of transexual porn saved to his computer. I  mentioned  it to him,he laughed and thought nothing much of it. But it makes me wonder if he really loves me for my personality , or because im transgender.He is so nice, am I in the wrong for letting this slide ?

Angela.

That is how some men are. It's meaningless. Rule 1. Never let him know you saw it.

I'm sorry, but the notion that men don't need these things now they have you is nonsense. They think about sex every 3 secods of something like that.

He's a man. That's what men do. 

[Muffin]

lols....................... that is all.

[pebbles]

Im a little troubled coming back from Michaels house tonight. I had to check something on his computer, and I did not like what I found. It appears he has pictures of transexual porn saved to his computer. I  mentioned  it to him,he laughed and thought nothing much of it. But it makes me wonder if he really loves me for my personality , or because im transgender.He is so nice, am I in the wrong for letting this slide ?

Men have high libidos I'm sure you can understand T has that effect, And sometimes they have unusual tastes.

I'd suspect that he might originally have been attracted to your Trans nature then learned to love you as a person, As your post op now he doesn't have an outlet for that sexual desire of his thus he expresses that element of attraction through pornography.

We can't help what we are attracted to it doesn't necessarily make us bad people. I'd consider the nature of the relationship you have with your partner. The relationship you have seems full and authentic and not parasitic or dependent at all.

[Angela]

Thanks Pebbles , I was hoping someone would see it like that. This may sound silly , but if anyone gets the chance to get romanticlly involved with someone you knew well, from when you were male go for it. It has its advantages, you know what turns him on, what he dislikes, it also saves you most of getting to know someone from the beginning. Our only challenge in our relationship, is Michael getting to know me as Angela, because  my personality couldnt be more diffrent from then. He wants to tell some of his guy friends about me, but Im not ready for that. I was fortunate enough that his parents were understanding, I know how guys in Greece are to transgender issues, not good.