I got another email from dad last week.. telling me that it was disturbing that a child as young as like 9 or 10 would research and learn about transexuality.. and that since I thought about it then.. it's obviously just a childish wish that never went away.. and that since I've invested alot of time into this wish it's going to be something hard to get rid of. So he's super eagre for me to get into counselling.
Wrote back and told him that.. I tried to hide, repress, deal with this since elementary school.. and it's just now that I'm actually givcing this a go.. and not trying to be someone else (that I am clearly not). Told him I'm tired of fighting and struggling with this.. And that I'm going to really investigate the whole trans thing. No reply. However he's called me Terri (not Terry which is my preffered name/what i've had it changed to).. since I came out.. which is a good start.
Came home this weekend and he hasn't mentioned anything other then asked if I've started trans counselling yet.. but likely wont start for a few more weeks.
Uhhh.. I haven't asked mom to call me any different or go by different pronouns.. because even though she's great I figured I'd give her time to adjust. Today she was talking to the dog about me.. and she's like.. 'get her.. no him.. her? him? This is really hard on us"... but at least she's considering other pronouns without me asking..
Love mom.
Friends kids have stopped calling me aunty and just call me terry. They are all under 4.. I hadn't asked them to, but their mom has been traning them when I'm not around and their dad isn't around.. and i'm well impressed.
Meanwhile, got a facial piercing, making more and more friends who just know me as another guy... and not a ->-bleeped-<- or whatever..
Wrote a paper for 'how to counsel specific groups' on transgenders and got a 28/30. My prof sent a letter along with my grade saying he worked with transsexuals in a the as his job 70's... and that from what he can see it's way harder for transexuals now then it ever was in the latter half of the 1900's... which is interesting.. because most people assume it's was way harder back then than it is now. I got many comments back from peers in my class on this paper.. and they all loved it and found it rather informative. Most of them had said they had never met a transgendered person before.. and I had a laugh.. because they have all met me on multiple occaisions. Means I'm passing well. It was also hilarious because we had a speaker come in and do a 3 hour lecture on trans and glb community. He's a specialist in this area, but he had definitions wrong.. and my paper kinda just blew his knowledge and stuff that he had presented out of the water. Was stoked on that.
I got a term paper coming up that I also plan to write on transexuals.. and another paper worth 100% of my mark that I'm writing on gender/sexual identities..
hmmm what else is new.
Doctors appointment this week.. assume we'll talk about T more, counselling starts in a couple weeks. I'm getting kinda excited.
I'm just kinda stoked on like right now. I've been working out over the last month to try and bulk up a bit.. and people have commented on how they've noticed that my shoulders are broader, that I have alot more defintion, and that I feel more muscly in general. I've noticed a huge increase in strength and am now lifting more then alot of the bio guys that I see at the gym. Makes me feel like I fit in there as well. And with my binder that looks like an undershirt.. and packing under my boxers or briefs.. the change room at the gym is easy to use to. No issue with changing into tshirt and shorts there.
Hmmm... also been using my stp more and more at urinals.. while i pack.. I've been just keeping my stp in my pocket instead of in my packer.. since i like to be able to wash it after i'm done. And I'm getting good enough at it that I can pull it out of my pocket and use it at a urinal without anyone being any the wiser.
Donno what else to say other that in general.. ->-bleeped-<-s going good atm and it makes me happy.
