confused

[midnight.dreams]

maybe not the best subject but it's all I got right now. I'm 20 years old and extremely confused about my gender identity and the more I think about it the more confusing it becomes. I live in a big city and still I can not find anyone to relate too and I am not ready to discuses any of my issues with my existing friends yet. I have created a blog ( http://deviantmess.blogspot.com ) and I know its a lot to ask considering I'm not even a regular on this forum but I would greatly appreciate it.
Thanks everyone.

[azSam]

You can create a blog on here if you are interested. I am not entirely sure of the requirements of having a blog, or if there are any. But I am sure that someone can help you with it.

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[xAndrewx]

Welcome to the forum midnight.dreams! I'll take a look at your blog soon as I can. Hope this site helps you with some of your confusion.

Edit: Upon glancing over it I just figured I'd mention that there are some non-op people on the forum as well as androgynous people. Not sure if that is what you feel you are but... figured I'd mention it.

[midnight.dreams]

really? I didn't know you could blog on this site. Thanks a lot to the both of you.
and I'm not really sure which category I fit under to be honest.

[Sarah_aus]

Hi Midnight.dreams

I think you have come to the right place, there is lots of great information and lots of understanding poeple who can relate to what you are going through, as far as labels go, if you don't feel comfortable with a label, don't have one, I know I felt that way for the longest time, and even now, though I identify as MtF, I still don't like to be labelled I'm just another person. thats all.

After reading your blog I see a lot of the feelings I struggled with and still struggle with on a daily basis, have you considered therapy? (I myself have only recentley started, though, I am finding it to be a very rewarding process)
Feel free to email me if you want to, just follow the link, I'm not sure how much help I can be, but it's good to bounce ideas off someone who understands sometimes.

Love

~Tali

[Janet_Girl]

Hi midnight.dreams,

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[Astarielle]

Believe me when I say you are not alone. I started in the opposite gate, born male, but with a certain...pull towards female.

Some days I'm completely ready for it, and I go mad wishing I could do something, and some days I'm like "Naw, it's not that bad."

Mostly, it's the feelings of uncertainty that make me feel that I'm not ready, or perhaps not trans at all. I do advise caution, but fear can bind us more tightly than any other chain. A wise person once said "Only those who risk going too far can see how far they can really go."

I'm not sure how much I agree with that, but learning to fly (You'll see I'm obsessed with the concept for some reason) means taking a chance. Hopefully we can help each other get straightened out.