Mid term crisis?

[alexia elliot]

I don't know is it some sort of mid transition crisis but I have entered "everything not quite as it should be" stage. I look in the mirror and see changes to my face and yes it sort of gravitates to feminine but not the feminine I was thinking of. Mainly was under impression I would turn into this blossoming beautiful rose flower but no rose in site. In fact I don't think I like it. Its weird and I feel hesitation of weather proceeding further is right. My internal drive says push forth but I see changes are not satisfying my own criteria. Is it normal? Am I just one of many going through this stage?

[Nero]

Well, it depends what you mean. Were you thinking HRT would turn you into a bombshell and it hasn't? Most every woman would like to be gorgeous, so it just means you had unrealistic expectations. But if you mean you don't like the changes, the increasing femaleness of your body, then something else may be going on.

[alexia elliot]

Hey Nero, I do love the femininity encompassing my entire being and feel at awe with such, but my face seems to transform radically different from my expectations as suppose to my body transforming exactly as I predicted, in fact much better then I predicted it would. I guess I had this vision of what could have been and this facial progress is not living up to my expectations. I don't want to find my self with the body of a swan and face of a chicken 
No disrespect intended towards chickens.

[Nero]

How long have you been on HRT, may I ask?

[V M]

  Hmmmmm, I get like this from time to time... Particularly around my birthday... We are all way too hard on ourselves... We tend to be far too self critical

Yup... Your gonna be 44 and I'm gonna be 49

I've seen your pic.s and even a vid. you made (but it was deemed too risqu'e for the site so you took it down)

Anyway... I think you've developed into quite a beautiful woman

Don't be so hard on yourself 

[Ms.Behavin]

It can take a year or two for "Most" of the changes to appear.  Though up to 4-5 years for everything to be done.  If your only been on HRT for 6-8 months then I would expect additional changes to the soft tissues...

In other words...it can take what seems like a looonnnngggg time for everything to settle in.

Good luck

Beni

[alexia elliot]

I have started HRT 1 year and 4 months ago, although at very low dosage and in stages of introducing separate components in order to do least amount of shock to the system. Since about 4 months my dosage has been raised to an adequate level. I guess patience is a virtue and I am expecting miracles. My body though is a miracle in making so I suppose I expect the same from the rest which realistically is pushing too hard. Thanks for words of wisdom, once again, our family with such support is a blessing, love you all!

[Carlita]

Alexia, is that you in your profile pic? And is it a reasonably close, not too PhotoShopped representation of what you look like? Because if the answer to those questions is 'Yes' you should know that you are one hot 44 year-old ... and the fact that you are still gazing with anguish into the mirror and seeing a chicken instead of a swan only indicates that you are very much a woman! 

[Nero]

Have to agree with Carlita on the avatar. Whoever that is, is gorgeous! So if that's you, you're crazy! 

Well, I myself went through a stage of not being used to the new face in the mirror and not being sure if I liked it. When it started morphing (my face had been very feminine), it looked weird to me. It's now starting to look better but for a while there...

So, you may just be going through an awkward stage. It is puberty after all.  Give it some time. Your eye is not used to it yet.

[V M]

*Yup, that is her in her avatar*
Happy Birthday Alexia!!! 

[azSam]

You are very pretty Alexia. Happy birthday too. I have similar problems, except it's not that the face is too strange, it's the the face is all too familiar, and I feel like changes just aren't coming very quickly.

Sure my complexion looks good, very good, thanks to the hrt; and I have made efforts to feminize my face, it still just doesn't look very feminine to me. I know that it generally takes 3 years for all of the full changes to take effect, but I'm not entirely sure how far along I should be at 7 and 1 half months.

My body shape has changed dramatically, my breasts are growing at a staggering rate, but my face seems to remain mostly the same. Any thoughts on that? Maybe I'm just being too hard on myself? Or maybe I just haven't quite gotten to the "good stuff" (time wise) in my HRT?

Maybe it's the change is so slow and gradual that I don't really notice it, even though it is working.

[spacial]

I've seen other avitar photos of Alexia and she does look really hot.

Just needs a confidence booster.

[alexia elliot]

I have similar problems, except it's not that the face is too strange, it's the the face is all too familiar, and I feel like changes just aren't coming very quickly.

Thank you girls for support, it means a lot. Samantha did touch on something very interesting, and now after thinking about it I get it. Yes, it is the familiarity that makes me anxious! My body is truly transformed into something new and I suppose unfamiliar, hence it makes me feel new and different but the familiarity of face I look at almost seems as though nothing is happening. 
Thanks for Birthday wishes you are so sweet, but at 44 gravity somehow doubles every decade and faint cute lines of character become ridges and valleys of 3d grand canyon map on my face.

By the way here is my latest untouched pick but heavy makeup and unclear so a lot of unwanted details are not showing, such as the Grand canyon map I would not dare show you my drab pick for that I think I have to wait years:

[azSam]

Alexia, you are very very pretty, and very very passable. I'm 25 years old, and I wish I could look as good as you.